The Living Link: A Novel — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Living Link: A Novel
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“Your health?” said Dudleigh, looking at her with an earnest glance;
“your health? Why, that is every thing. Mine is nothing. Can you
suggest such a thing to me as that I should allow any trouble to come to
you? Besides, your delicate health already alarms me. You have not yet
recovered from your illness. You are not capable of enduring fatigue,
and I am always reproaching myself for allowing you to stay here as much
as you do. The Dudleighs have done enough. They have brought the father
to this;” and he pointed mournfully to the bed. “But,” he added, in a
tremulous voice, “the daughter should at least be saved, and to have
harm come to her would be worse than death itself--to me.”
Edith was silent for a few moments. Her heart was beating fast. When she
spoke, it was with an effort, and in as calm a voice as possible.
“Oh,” she said, “I am quite recovered. Indeed, I am as well as ever,
and I wish to spend more time here. Will you not let me stay here
longer?”
“How can I? The confinement would wear you out.”
“It would not be more fatiguing than staying in my own room,” persisted
Edith.
“I'm afraid there would be very much difference,” said Dudleigh. “In
your own room you have no particular anxiety, but here you would have
the incessant responsibility of a nurse. You would have to watch your
father, and every movement would give you concern.”
“And this harassing care is what I wish to save you from, and share with
you,” said Edith, earnestly. “Will you not consent to this?”
“To share it with you?” said Dudleigh looking at her with unutterable
tenderness. “To share it with you?” he repeated. “It would be only too
much happiness for me to do so, but not if you are going to overwork
yourself.”
“But I will not,” said Edith. “If I do, I can stop. I only ask to be
allowed to come in during the morning, so as to relieve you of some of
your work. You will consent, will you not?”
Edith asked him this as though Dudleigh had exclusive right here, and
she had none. She could not help feeling as if this was so, and this
feeling arose from those memories which she had of that terrible past,
when she ignorantly hurled at that father's heart words that stung like
the stings of scorpions. Never could she forgive herself for that, and
for this she now humbled herself in this way. Her tone was so pleading
that Dudleigh could refuse no longer. With many deprecatory expressions,
and many warnings and charges, he at last consented to let her divide
the morning attendance with him. She was to come in at eleven o'clock.