Aghast, almost mad with the horror of a fate so much more terrible than
any I had anticipated, I strove to utter a cry; but my tongue refused
its office, and nothing but an inarticulate murmur rose from my lips.
It was not piercing enough to clear the edge of the vat, and my soul
sunk with despair as I heard its fruitless gurgle and realized by the
sound of departing steps, and the faint and fainter glimmer of the
circle of light which at my first glance had shone quite brightly above
my hideous prison-house, that my persecutors had done their worst and
were now leaving me alone in my trap to perish.
God! what an instant it was! To speak, to shriek, to call, nay plead
for aid, was but the natural outcome of the overwhelming anguish I
felt, but the sound of steps had died out into an awful stillness, and
the glimmering circle upon which my staring eyes were fixed had faded
into a darkness so utter and complete, that had the earth been piled
above my head, I could not have been more wholly hidden from the light.
I had fallen on my knees, and desperate as I was, had made no attempt
to rise. Not that I thought of prayer, unless my whole dazed and
horrified being was a prayer. The consolations which I had offered to
others did not seem to meet this case. Here was no death in the
presence of friends and under the free light of heaven. This was a
horror. The hand of God which could reach every other mortal, whatever
their danger or doom, seemed to stop short at this gate of hell. I
could not even imagine my soul escaping thence. I was buried; body and
soul, I was buried and yet I was alive and knew that I must remain
alive for days if not for weeks.
I do not suppose that I remained in this frightful condition of
absolute hopelessness for more than five minutes, but it seemed to me
an eternity. If a drowning man can review his life in an instant, what
was there not left for me to think and suffer in the lapse of those
five horrible minutes? I was young when the unscrupulous hand of this
daring murderer pushed me into this pit; I was old when with a thrill
of joy such as passes over the body but once In a life-time, I heard a
voice issue from the darkness, saying severely, "David Barrows, are you
prepared for a decision now?" and realized that like the light which
now sprang into full brilliance above my head, hope had come again into
my life, and that I had to speak but a dozen words to have sunshine and
liberty restored to me.