Stop up the access and passage to remorse;
That no compunctious visitings of nature
Shake my fell purpose, nor keep peace between
The effect and it!
--MACBETH.
Being in the confessional, I have not forborne to tell the worst of
myself; I will not, therefore, hesitate to tell the best. When on that
very afternoon I entered Mrs. Pollard's grounds, it was with a resolve
to make her speak out, that had no element of weakness in it. Not her
severest frown, nor that diabolical look from Guy's eye, which had
hitherto made me quail, should serve to turn me aside from my purpose,
or thwart those interests of right and justice which I felt were so
deeply at stake. If my own attempt, backed by the disclosures which had
come to me through the prayer-book I had received from Mr. Pollard,
should fail, then the law should take hold of the matter and wrench the
truth from this seemingly respectable family, even at the risk of my
own happiness and the consideration which I had always enjoyed in this
town.
The house, when I approached it, struck me with an odd sense of change.
I did not stop at the time to inquire why this was, but I have since
concluded, in thinking over the subject, that the parlor curtains must
have been drawn up, something which I do not remember ever having seen
there before or since. The front door also was ajar, and when I rang
the bell it was so speedily answered that I had hardly time to summon
up the expression of determination which I felt would alone gain me
admittance to the house. But my presence instead of seeming unwelcome,
seemed to be almost expected by the servant who opened to me. He bowed,
smiled, and that, too, in almost a holiday fashion; and when I would
have asked for Mrs. Pollard, interrupted me by a request to lay off my
overcoat in a side room, which he courteously pointed out to me.
There was something in this and in the whole aspect of the place which
astonished me greatly. If this sombre dwelling with its rich but
dismally dark halls and mysterious recesses could be said to ever wear
an air of cheer, the attempt certainly had been made to effect this
to-day. From the hand of the bronze figure that capped the newel-post
hung wreaths of smilax and a basket full of the most exquisite flowers;
while from a half-open door at my right came a streak of positive
light, and the sound of several voices animated with some sentiment
that was strangely out of accord with the solemn scene to which this
very room had so lately been a witness. Can they be having a reception?
I asked myself; and almost ashamed of the surmise, ever in the house of
one so little respected, I, nevertheless, turned to the civil servant
before me and remarked:
"There is something going on here of which I was ignorant. Is Mrs.
Pollard entertaining guests to-day?"
"Did you not know, sir?" he inquired. "I thought you had been invited,
perhaps; Miss Pollard is going to be married this afternoon."