that I felt him to be true, however much my reason might recognize the
possibility of his falsehood. Rather than slight a noble spirit
struggling with a great distress, I would incur any penalty which a
possible lapse of judgment might bring; my temperament being such that
I found less shame in the thought that I might be deceived, than that,
out of a spirit of too great caution and self-love, I should fail an
unhappy soul at the moment when my sympathy might be of inestimable
benefit to its welfare.
The venomous threats and extreme show of power displayed in Rhoda
Colwell's letter had overreached themselves. They roused my pride. They
made me question whether it was necessary for us to live under such a
dominion of suspense as she had prepared for us. If Dwight Pollard's
asseverations were true, it would be a cruel waste of peace and
happiness for him or me to rest under such a subjection, when by a
little bravery at the outset her hold upon us might be annihilated and
her potency destroyed.
The emotions which I have agreed to ignore came in to give weight to
this thought. To save myself it was necessary to prove Dwight Pollard
true. Not only my sense of justice, but the very life and soul of my
being, demanded the settling of all suspicion and the establishment of
my trust upon a sure foundation. While a single doubt remained in my
mind I was liable to shame before my best self, and shame and Constance
Sterling did not mix easily or well, especially with that leaven of
self-interest added, to which I have alluded only a few paragraphs back.
But how, with my lack of resources and the apparent dearth of all means
for attaining the end I had in view, I was to prove Rhoda Colwell's
insinuations false, and Dwight Pollard's assertion true, was a question
to which an answer did not come with very satisfactory readiness. Even
the simple query as to how I was to explain my late neglect to Dwight
Pollard occasioned me an hour of anxious thought; and it was not till I
remembered that the simplest course was always the best, and that with
a snake in the grass like Rhoda Colwell, the most fearless foot trod
with the greatest safety, that I felt my difficulties on that score
melt away. I would write to Dwight Pollard, and I would tell Rhoda
Colwell I had done so, thus proving to her that I meditated nothing
underhanded, and could be trusted to say what I would do, and do what I
should say.
This decision taken, I sat down immediately and penned the following
two notes:
MISS RHODA COLWELL:--Owing to illness, your letter has just been read
by me. To it I will simply reply that you are right in believing my
regard could never be given to a guilty man. As long as the faintest
doubt of Mr. Pollard remains in my mind we are indeed separated by a
gulf. But let that doubt in any way be removed, and I say to you
frankly that nothing you could threaten or the world perform, would
prevent my yielding to him the fullest sympathy and the most hearty
encouragement.