not reflected in my own face, "when, after the longest waiting I ever
had at his door, he slowly came across the room and opened it, showing
me a face as white as a sheet, and a hand that trembled so that he
dropped the card I gave him and had to pick it up. Had there been a
child there----"
"But there wasn't!" I interrupted, shocked and forced to defend him in
spite of myself.
"No, nor anybody else. For when he went down-stairs, I looked in and
there was no one there, and nothing uncommon about the room, except
that I thought his bookcase looked as if it had been moved. And it had;
for next day when I swept this room--it did not need sweeping, but one
can't wait for ever to satisfy their curiosity--I just looked behind
that case, and what do you think I found? A strap--a regular leather
strap--just such as----"
"Good God!" I interrupted; "you do not think he had been using it when
you went to the door?"
"I do," she said. "I think he had a fit of something like insanity upon
him, and had been swinging that strap----Well, I will not say against
what, for I do not know, but might it not have been against the fiends
and goblins with which crazy people sometimes imagine they are
surrounded?"
"Possibly," I acquiesced, though my tone could not have been one of any
strong conviction.
"Insane persons sometimes do strange things," she continued; "and that
he did not show himself violent before folks is no sign he did not let
himself out sometimes when he was alone. The very fact that he
restrained himself when he went into the pulpit and visited among his
friends, may have made him wilder when he got all by himself. I am sure
I remember having heard of a case where a man lived for ten years in a
town without a single neighbor suspecting him of insanity; yet his wife
suffered constantly from his freaks, and finally fell a victim to his
violence."
"But Mr. Barrows was such a brilliant man," I objected. "His sermons up
to the last were models of eloquence."
"Oh, he could preach," she assented.
Seeing that she was not to be moved in her convictions, I ventured upon
a few questions.
"Have you ever thought," I asked, "what it was that created such a
change in him? You say you noticed it for a month before his death;
could any thing have happened to disturb him at that time?"
"Not that I know of," she answered, with great readiness. "I was away
for a week in August, and it was when I first came back that I observed
how different he was from what he had been before. I thought at first
it was the hot weather, but heat don't make one restless and unfit to
sit quiet in one's chair. Nor does it drive a man to work as if the
very evil one was in him, keeping the light burning sometimes till two
in the morning, while he wrote and walked, and walked and wrote, till I
thought my head would burst with sympathy for him."
"He was finishing a book, was he not? I think I have heard he left a
completed manuscript behind him?"