“Gratitude!” He seemed greatly excited. His voice was broken with
emotion. “Gratitude to me? For what? For driving you from home? For
dealing out your inheritance piecemeal to that hungry vulture yonder?
You kill me with your cruelty.”
“Father!” I cried, amazed.
“No, no, Renalt! You don’t mean to be! But you mustn’t talk of it--you
mustn’t! It’s a long knife in my soul--every word! The one thing I
might have done for you--I failed in. The wild girl, Renalt; that you
loved--oh! A little more watchfulness on my part, a little less
selfishness, might have saved her for you!”
He broke down a moment; then went on with a rough sob: “You think I
love you, and I want you to think it; but--if you only knew all.”
“I know enough. I hold you nothing to blame in all you have referred
to.”
He waved me from him, entreating me to leave him alone awhile, and he
was so unstrung that I thought it best to comply.
But now a new ghost shook my very soul in its walking, and it was the
specter of the blackmailer’s raising.
Was it possible--was it possible that my father that night--in some
fit of drunken savagery----
I put the thought from me, with loathing, but it returned again and
again.
One fair morning it occurred to me to go and look upon the grave I had
never yet visited. Perhaps, I thought, I should find inspiration
there. This vengeful, bewildered pursuit--I did not know how long I
should be able to endure it. Sometimes, reviewing the latter, I felt
as if it would be best to abandon the chase right then; to yield the
chimera to fate to resolve as she might judge fit or never to resolve
at all, perhaps. Then the thought that only by running to earth the
guilty could I vindicate the innocent, would steel me more rigidly
than ever in the old determination.
The ancient church, in the yard of which Modred was buried, stands no
great distance away upon a slope of the steep hill that shuts in the
east quarter of Winton.
As I passed from the road through the little gate in the yard
boundaries a garden of green was about me--an acre of tree and shrub
and grass set thickly with flowering barrows and tombstones wrapped in
lichen, like velvet for the royal dead. The old church stood in the
midst, as quiet and staid and peaceful there in its bower as if no
restless life of a loud city hummed and echoed all about it.
I paused in indecision. For the first time it occurred to me that I
had made no inquiry as to the position of my brother’s grave; that I
did not even know if the site of his resting-place was marked by stone
or other humbler monument. While I stood the sound of a voice cheerily
singing came to me from the further side of a laurel bush that stood
up from the grass a rood away. I walked round it and came plump upon
my philosophical friend of the “weirs,” knee-deep in a grave that he
was lustily excavating.
“Hullo,” I said, and “Hullo,” he answered.
“You seem to find your task a pleasant one?” said I.