He stood very still, staring up the line, and a thickness came in my
throat, so that I could not for the moment call to him as I wanted to.
For there was an ominous suggestion in his posture that sent a wave of
sickness through me--a suggestion of rigid expectation, like that one
might fancy a victim of the old reign of terror would have shown as he
waited his turn on the guillotine.
And as I paused in indecision--at that moment came a surging rumble
and a puff of steam from a dip in the hills a hundred yards away, and
the figure threw itself down, with its neck stretched over the shining
vein of iron that ran in front of it. And I cried “Jason!” in a
nightmare voice, and had hardly strength to turn my head away from the
sight that I knew was coming. Yet through all my sick panic the shadow
of a thought flashed--blame me for it who will--“Let me bear it and
not give way, for he is taking the sure way to end his terror.”
The thunder of the monster death came with the thought--shook the air
of the hills--broke into a piercing scream of triumph as it rushed
down on its victim--passed and clanged away among the hollows, as if
the crushed mass in its jaws were choking it to silence. Then I
brushed the blind horror from my eyes and looked down.
He was lying on the chalk of the embankment below me; he was stirring;
he sat up and looked about him with a bewildered stare. The tragedy
had ended in bathos after all. At the last moment courage had failed
the poor wretch and he had leaped from the hurtling doom.
Shaking all over, I scrambled, slipping and rolling, down the slope,
and landed on my feet before him.
“Up!” I cried; “up! Don’t wait to speak or explain! They’ll telegraph
from the next stopping-place, and you’ll be laid by the heels for
attempted suicide.”
He rose staggering and half-fell against me.
“Renny,” he whimpered in a thick voice and clutched at my shoulders to
steady himself. “My God! I nearly did it--didn’t I?”
“Come away, I tell you. It’ll be too late in another half-hour.”
I ran him, shambling and stumbling, down the cutting till we had made
a half-circuit of the town and were able to enter it at a point due
east to that we had left. Then at last, on the slope of that quiet
road we had crossed when escaping from Duke, I paused to gather breath
and regard this returned brother of mine.
It was a sorry spectacle that met my vision, a personality pitiably
fallen and degraded during those thirty months or so of absence. It
was not only that the mere animal beauty of it was coarsened and
debauched into a parody of itself, but that its informing spirit was
so blunted by indulgence as to have lost forever that pathetic dignity
of despair, with which a hounding persecution had once inspired it.
As I looked at him, at his dull, bloodshot eyes and loose pendulous
lower lip, my heart hardened despite myself and I had difficulty in
addressing him with any show of civility.
“Now,” I said, “what next?”