Presently his left hand, that lay on the coverlet, began moving. The
fingers twitched with a beckoning motion and he raised his arm several
times and let it fall again listlessly. I fancied I was conscious of
some dumb appeal addressed to me, toward which my own soul yearned in
sympathy. Yet, strive as I would, I could not interpret it. An
inexpressible trouble seemed lost and wandering in the fathomless
depths of the eyes; passionate utterance seemed ever hovering on the
lips, ever escaping the grasp of will and sliding back into blackness.
“Dad,” I said, “what is it? Try to express by a sign and I will try to
understand.”
The hand rose again, weakly fluttered in the air and dropped upon the
coverlet. Thrice the effort was made and thrice I failed to interpret
its significance. Then a little quivering sigh came from the mouth and
the eyes closed in exhaustion.
I racked my brains for the meaning of the sign. Some trouble, it was
evident, sought expression, but what--what--what? My mind was all
dulled and confused by the incidents of the last few days.
While I was vainly struggling for a solution old Peggy entered the
room with tea and bread and butter for my afternoon meal. She paused
with the tray in her hands, watching the blind groping of the fingers
on the bed.
“Ay,” she said, “but I doubt me ye cudn’t hold a pen, master.”
I turned sharply to her.
“Is that what he wants?”
“Pen or pencil--’tis arl one. When speech goes, we talk wi’ the
fingers.”
What a fool I had been! The sign I had struggled in vain for hours to
read, this uncanny old beldame had understood at a glance.
I hurried out of the room and returned with paper and pencil. I thrust
the latter between the wandering fingers and they closed over it with
a quick, weak snap. But they could not retain it, and it slipped from
them again upon the coverlet. A moan broke from the lips and the arm
beat the clothes feebly.
“Heave en up,” said the old woman. “He’s axing ye to.”
I put my arm under my father’s shoulders and with a strong effort got
him into a sitting posture, propped among the pillows. I placed the
pencil in his hand again and held the paper in such a position that he
could write upon it. He succeeded in making a few hieroglyphic
scratches on the white surface and that was all.
“It’s no manner o’ use, Renalt,” said Peggy. “Better lat en alone and
drink up your tea.”
“Put it down there and leave us to ourselves.”
The old creature did as she was bidden and shuffled from the room
grumbling.
I placed the paper where my father’s hand could rest upon it, and sat
down to my silent meal.