“How the old torment flames up in me at the last! I think I gave my
soul to the wanton and I thought I had hers in exchange. What inspired
fools love makes of us! My castle in Cloudland stood firm till that
month after Modred’s birth. Then all in a day--a minute--it dissolved
and vanished. I came upon her secretly gloating over a portrait--the
miniature of a man. I saw--suspected--wrenched half the truth from
her. Half the truth only, Renalt. When I wedded with her she had a
child living. She whose love I had looked upon as a precious
possession was all base and hollow, behind her beautiful personality.
More--she had borne me three children; yet what affection she was
capable of clung about the memory of her first passion. True, this
spark had wearied of her, had dismissed her from his service--his
service, you understand? And from the face of her child. Yet the long
years of my passionate devotion weighed as nothing in the balance. I
was the means ready to make of her an honest woman--that was all. An
honest woman--my God!”
His teeth snapped together with a click; his dying eyes shone out, but
their inspiration was demoniacal.
“In one thing only,” he went on in a low, hard voice, “the poor frail
wretch was stable. That portrait--the miniature--she died refusing to
reveal to me its identity. No threats, no cruelty availed. She kept
her secret to the last.”
As he now continued his left hand clutched and tightened upon the
bedclothes and a dark shadow seemed to grow out of his face.
“I shut her close in the room below. There, with only the voice of the
wheel for company, I swore she should remain till she confessed. Each
day I brought her food and water, and each day I said, ‘Give me his
name,’ but she was always silent. She had been weak and ailing from
caring for her baby Modred, and she faded before my eyes. Yet I was
merciless. A little more, I thought, and so worthless, fragile a thing
must needs yield and answer me. It was will against will, and hers
conquered.”
He paused a moment, and I could see drops of sweat freckling his
forehead.