The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
John Stuart Mill · en
She hurried along the gravel-walk and entered the house before Tom; but
in the entrance she was startled by a strong smell of tobacco. The
parlour door was ajar; that was where the smell came from. It was very
strange; could any visitor be smoking at a time like this? Was her
mother there? If so, she must be told that Tom was come. Maggie, after
this pause of surprise, was only in the act of opening the door when
Tom came up, and they both looked into the parlour together.
There was a coarse, dingy man, of whose face Tom had some vague
recollection, sitting in his father’s chair, smoking, with a jug and
glass beside him.
The truth flashed on Tom’s mind in an instant. To “have the bailiff in
the house,” and “to be sold up,” were phrases which he had been used
to, even as a little boy; they were part of the disgrace and misery of
“failing,” of losing all one’s money, and being ruined,—sinking into
the condition of poor working people. It seemed only natural this
should happen, since his father had lost all his property, and he
thought of no more special cause for this particular form of misfortune
than the loss of the lawsuit. But the immediate presence of this
disgrace was so much keener an experience to Tom than the worst form of
apprehension, that he felt at this moment as if his real trouble had
only just begun: it was a touch on the irritated nerve compared with
its spontaneous dull aching.
“How do you do, sir?” said the man, taking the pipe out of his mouth,
with rough, embarrassed civility. The two young startled faces made him
a little uncomfortable.
But Tom turned away hastily without speaking; the sight was too
hateful. Maggie had not understood the appearance of this stranger, as
Tom had. She followed him, whispering: “Who can it be, Tom? What is the
matter?” Then, with a sudden undefined dread lest this stranger might
have something to do with a change in her father, she rushed upstairs,
checking herself at the bedroom door to throw off her bonnet, and enter
on tiptoe. All was silent there; her father was lying, heedless of
everything around him, with his eyes closed as when she had left him. A
servant was there, but not her mother.
“Where’s my mother?” she whispered. The servant did not know.
Maggie hastened out, and said to Tom; “Father is lying quiet; let us go
and look for my mother. I wonder where she is.”
Mrs Tulliver was not downstairs, not in any of the bedrooms. There was
but one room below the attic which Maggie had left unsearched; it was
the storeroom, where her mother kept all her linen and all the precious
“best things” that were only unwrapped and brought out on special
occasions.
Tom, preceding Maggie, as they returned along the passage, opened the
door of this room, and immediately said, “Mother!”