“It’s just as if it was yesterday, now,” Mr Tulliver went on, “when my
father began the malting. I remember, the day they finished the
malt-house, I thought summat great was to come of it; for we’d a
plum-pudding that day and a bit of a feast, and I said to my
mother,—she was a fine dark-eyed woman, my mother was,—the little wench
’ull be as like her as two peas.” Here Mr Tulliver put his stick
between his legs, and took out his snuff-box, for the greater enjoyment
of this anecdote, which dropped from him in fragments, as if he every
other moment lost narration in vision. “I was a little chap no higher
much than my mother’s knee,—she was sore fond of us children, Gritty
and me,—and so I said to her, ‘Mother,’ I said, ‘shall we have
plum-pudding _every_ day because o’ the malt-house? She used to tell me
o’ that till her dying day. She was but a young woman when she died, my
mother was. But it’s forty good year since they finished the
malt-house, and it isn’t many days out of ’em all as I haven’t looked
out into the yard there, the first thing in the morning,—all weathers,
from year’s end to year’s end. I should go off my head in a new place.
I should be like as if I’d lost my way. It’s all hard, whichever way I
look at it,—the harness ’ull gall me, but it ’ud be summat to draw
along the old road, instead of a new un.”
“Ay, sir,” said Luke, “you’d be a deal better here nor in some new
place. I can’t abide new places mysen: things is allays
awk’ard,—narrow-wheeled waggins, belike, and the stiles all another
sort, an’ oat-cake i’ some places, tow’rt th’ head o’ the Floss, there.
It’s poor work, changing your country-side.”
“But I doubt, Luke, they’ll be for getting rid o’ Ben, and making you
do with a lad; and I must help a bit wi’ the mill. You’ll have a worse
place.”
“Ne’er mind, sir,” said Luke, “I sha’n’t plague mysen. I’n been wi’ you
twenty year, an’ you can’t get twenty year wi’ whistlin’ for ’em, no
more nor you can make the trees grow: you mun wait till God A’mighty
sends ’em. I can’t abide new victual nor new faces, _I_ can’t,—you
niver know but what they’ll gripe you.”
The walk was finished in silence after this, for Luke had disburthened
himself of thoughts to an extent that left his conversational resources
quite barren, and Mr Tulliver had relapsed from his recollections into
a painful meditation on the choice of hardships before him. Maggie
noticed that he was unusually absent that evening at tea; and afterward
he sat leaning forward in his chair, looking at the ground, moving his
lips, and shaking his head from time to time. Then he looked hard at
Mrs Tulliver, who was knitting opposite him, then at Maggie, who, as
she bent over her sewing, was intensely conscious of some drama going
forward in her father’s mind. Suddenly he took up the poker and broke
the large coal fiercely.