“No, Philip,” said Maggie, shaking her head, in her old childish way;
“I’m telling you the truth. It is all new and strange to me; but I
don’t think I could love any one better than I love you. I should like
always to live with you—to make you happy. I have always been happy
when I have been with you. There is only one thing I will not do for
your sake; I will never do anything to wound my father. You must never
ask that from me.”
“No, Maggie, I will ask nothing; I will bear everything; I’ll wait
another year only for a kiss, if you will only give me the first place
in your heart.”
“No,” said Maggie, smiling, “I won’t make you wait so long as that.”
But then, looking serious again, she added, as she rose from her seat,—
“But what would your own father say, Philip? Oh, it is quite impossible
we can ever be more than friends,—brother and sister in secret, as we
have been. Let us give up thinking of everything else.”
“No, Maggie, I can’t give you up,—unless you are deceiving me; unless
you really only care for me as if I were your brother. Tell me the
truth.”
“Indeed I do, Philip. What happiness have I ever had so great as being
with you,—since I was a little girl,—the days Tom was good to me? And
your mind is a sort of world to me; you can tell me all I want to know.
I think I should never be tired of being with you.”
They were walking hand in hand, looking at each other; Maggie, indeed,
was hurrying along, for she felt it time to be gone. But the sense that
their parting was near made her more anxious lest she should have
unintentionally left some painful impression on Philip’s mind. It was
one of those dangerous moments when speech is at once sincere and
deceptive; when feeling, rising high above its average depth, leaves
floodmarks which are never reached again.
They stopped to part among the Scotch firs.
“Then my life will be filled with hope, Maggie, and I shall be happier
than other men, in spite of all? We _do_ belong to each other—for
always—whether we are apart or together?”
“Yes, Philip; I should like never to part; I should like to make your
life very happy.”
“I am waiting for something else. I wonder whether it will come.”
Maggie smiled, with glistening tears, and then stooped her tall head to
kiss the pale face that was full of pleading, timid love,—like a
woman’s.
She had a moment of real happiness then,—a moment of belief that, if
there were sacrifice in this love, it was all the richer and more
satisfying.
She turned away and hurried home, feeling that in the hour since she
had trodden this road before, a new era had begun for her. The tissue
of vague dreams must now get narrower and narrower, and all the threads
of thought and emotion be gradually absorbed in the woof of her actual
daily life.
Chapter V.
The Cloven Tree