The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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“And there’s your mother—you’ll try and make her amends, all you can,
for my bad luck—and there’s the little wench——”
The father turned his eyes on Maggie with a still more eager look,
while she, with a bursting heart, sank on her knees, to be closer to
the dear, time-worn face which had been present with her through long
years, as the sign of her deepest love and hardest trial.
“You must take care of her, Tom—don’t you fret, my wench—there’ll come
somebody as’ll love you and take your part—and you must be good to her,
my lad. I was good to _my_ sister. Kiss me, Maggie.—Come, Bessy.—You’ll
manage to pay for a brick grave, Tom, so as your mother and me can lie
together.”
He looked away from them all when he had said this, and lay silent for
some minutes, while they stood watching him, not daring to move. The
morning light was growing clearer for them, and they could see the
heaviness gathering in his face, and the dulness in his eyes. But at
last he looked toward Tom and said,—
“I had my turn—I beat him. That was nothing but fair. I never wanted
anything but what was fair.”
“But, father, dear father,” said Maggie, an unspeakable anxiety
predominating over her grief, “you forgive him—you forgive every one
now?”
He did not move his eyes to look at her, but he said,—
“No, my wench. I don’t forgive him. What’s forgiving to do? I can’t
love a raskill——”
His voice had become thicker; but he wanted to say more, and moved his
lips again and again, struggling in vain to speak. At length the words
forced their way.
“Does God forgive raskills?—but if He does, He won’t be hard wi’ me.”
His hands moved uneasily, as if he wanted them to remove some
obstruction that weighed upon him. Two or three times there fell from
him some broken words,—
“This world’s—too many—honest man—puzzling——”
Soon they merged into mere mutterings; the eyes had ceased to discern;
and then came the final silence.
But not of death. For an hour or more the chest heaved, the loud, hard
breathing continued, getting gradually slower, as the cold dews
gathered on the brow.
At last there was total stillness, and poor Tulliver’s dimly lighted
soul had forever ceased to be vexed with the painful riddle of this
world.
Help was come now; Luke and his wife were there, and Mr Turnbull had
arrived, too late for everything but to say, “This is death.”
Tom and Maggie went downstairs together into the room where their
father’s place was empty. Their eyes turned to the same spot, and
Maggie spoke,—
“Tom, forgive me—let us always love each other”; and they clung and
wept together.
BOOK SIXTH
THE GREAT TEMPTATION.
Chapter I.
A Duet in Paradise