When Maggie went up to her bedroom that night, it appeared that she was
not at all inclined to undress. She set down her candle on the first
table that presented itself, and began to walk up and down her room,
which was a large one, with a firm, regular, and rather rapid step,
which showed that the exercise was the instinctive vent of strong
excitement. Her eyes and cheeks had an almost feverish brilliancy; her
head was thrown backward, and her hands were clasped with the palms
outward, and with that tension of the arms which is apt to accompany
mental absorption.
Had anything remarkable happened?
Nothing that you are not likely to consider in the highest degree
unimportant. She had been hearing some fine music sung by a fine bass
voice,—but then it was sung in a provincial, amateur fashion, such as
would have left a critical ear much to desire. And she was conscious of
having been looked at a great deal, in rather a furtive manner, from
beneath a pair of well-marked horizontal eyebrows, with a glance that
seemed somehow to have caught the vibratory influence of the voice.
Such things could have had no perceptible effect on a thoroughly
well-educated young lady, with a perfectly balanced mind, who had had
all the advantages of fortune, training, and refined society. But if
Maggie had been that young lady, you would probably have known nothing
about her: her life would have had so few vicissitudes that it could
hardly have been written; for the happiest women, like the happiest
nations, have no history.
In poor Maggie’s highly-strung, hungry nature,—just come away from a
third-rate schoolroom, with all its jarring sounds and petty round of
tasks,—these apparently trivial causes had the effect of rousing and
exalting her imagination in a way that was mysterious to herself. It
was not that she thought distinctly of Mr Stephen Guest, or dwelt on
the indications that he looked at her with admiration; it was rather
that she felt the half-remote presence of a world of love and beauty
and delight, made up of vague, mingled images from all the poetry and
romance she had ever read, or had ever woven in her dreamy reveries.
Her mind glanced back once or twice to the time when she had courted
privation, when she had thought all longing, all impatience was
subdued; but that condition seemed irrecoverably gone, and she recoiled
from the remembrance of it. No prayer, no striving now, would bring
back that negative peace; the battle of her life, it seemed, was not to
be decided in that short and easy way,—by perfect renunciation at the
very threshold of her youth.
The music was vibrating in her still,—Purcell’s music, with its wild
passion and fancy,—and she could not stay in the recollection of that
bare, lonely past. She was in her brighter aerial world again, when a
little tap came at the door; of course it was her cousin, who entered
in ample white dressing-gown.