The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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wanting; and elsewhere, also, Miss Deane was too popular and too
distinguished a member of society in St Ogg’s for any attention toward
her to be neglected.
Thus Maggie was introduced for the first time to the young lady’s life,
and knew what it was to get up in the morning without any imperative
reason for doing one thing more than another. This new sense of leisure
and unchecked enjoyment amidst the soft-breathing airs and
garden-scents of advancing spring—amidst the new abundance of music,
and lingering strolls in the sunshine, and the delicious dreaminess of
gliding on the river—could hardly be without some intoxicating effect
on her, after her years of privation; and even in the first week Maggie
began to be less haunted by her sad memories and anticipations. Life
was certainly very pleasant just now; it was becoming very pleasant to
dress in the evening, and to feel that she was one of the beautiful
things of this spring-time. And there were admiring eyes always
awaiting her now; she was no longer an unheeded person, liable to be
chid, from whom attention was continually claimed, and on whom no one
felt bound to confer any. It was pleasant, too, when Stephen and Lucy
were gone out riding, to sit down at the piano alone, and find that the
old fitness between her fingers and the keys remained, and revived,
like a sympathetic kinship not to be worn out by separation; to get the
tunes she had heard the evening before, and repeat them again and again
until she had found out a way of producing them so as to make them a
more pregnant, passionate language to her. The mere concord of octaves
was a delight to Maggie, and she would often take up a book of studies
rather than any melody, that she might taste more keenly by abstraction
the more primitive sensation of intervals. Not that her enjoyment of
music was of the kind that indicates a great specific talent; it was
rather that her sensibility to the supreme excitement of music was only
one form of that passionate sensibility which belonged to her whole
nature, and made her faults and virtues all merge in each other; made
her affections sometimes an impatient demand, but also prevented her
vanity from taking the form of mere feminine coquetry and device, and
gave it the poetry of ambition. But you have known Maggie a long while,
and need to be told, not her characteristics, but her history, which is
a thing hardly to be predicted even from the completest knowledge of
characteristics. For the tragedy of our lives is not created entirely
from within. “Character,” says Novalis, in one of his questionable
aphorisms,—“character is destiny.” But not the whole of our destiny.
Hamlet, Prince of Denmark, was speculative and irresolute, and we have
a great tragedy in consequence. But if his father had lived to a good
old age, and his uncle had died an early death, we can conceive
Hamlet’s having married Ophelia, and got through life with a reputation