"I don't believe I was ever young--I seem to have known about the sadness of life from my cradle. That was why I wanted so passionately some of its gaiety. I remember I used to think that Paris meant gaiety, but when we went there I couldn't get over my surprise because of all the ragged people and the poor, miserable horses. They spoiled it to me." "The secret is not to look, isn't it?" he asked. "Yes. Jonathan never looked. It all depends, he used to tell me--upon which set of facts I chose to regard--and he calls it philosophical not to regard any but pleasant ones." "Perhaps he's right, but isn't it, after all, a question of the way he's made?" "Everything is; grandfather used to say that was why he was never able to judge people. Life was woven of many colours, like Joseph's coat, he once told me, and we could make dyes run, but we couldn't wash them entirely out. He couldn't make himself resentful when he tried--not even with--with Mr. Jonathan." "Have you ever forgiven him, Molly?" "I've sometimes thought that he was sorry at the end--but how could that undo the way he treated my mother? Being sorry when you're dying doesn't help things you've hurt in life--but, then, grandfather would have said, I suppose, that it was life, not Mr. Jonathan, that was to blame. And I can see, too, in a way, that we sometimes do things we don't want to do--that we don't even mean to do--that we regret ever afterwards--just because life drives us to do them--" For a minute she hesitated, and then added bravely, "I learned that by taking Mr. Jonathan's money." "But you were right," he answered. "To have the choice between love and money, and to choose--money?" "You're putting it harshly. It wasn't money you chose--it was the world or Old Church--Jordan's Journey or the grist mill." For a moment the throbbing of her heart stifled her. Then she found her voice. "If I had the choice now I'd choose Old Church and the grist mill," she said. There was a short silence, and while it lasted she waited trembling, her hand outstretched, her mouth quivering for his kisses. She remembered how eagerly his lips had turned to hers in the past as one who thirsted for water. But when he spoke again it was in the same quiet voice. "Would you, Molly!" he answered gently, and that was all. It was not a question, but an acceptance. He made no movement toward her. His eyes did not search her face. They turned and walked slowly across the pasture over the life-everlasting, which diffused under their feet a haunting and ghostly fragrance. Myriads of grasshoppers chanted in the warm sunshine, and a roving scent of wood-smoke drifted to them from a clearing across the road. It was the season of the year when the earth wears its richest and its most ephemeral splendour; when its bloom is so poignantly lovely that it seems as if a breath would destroy it, and the curves of hill and field melt like shadows into the faint purple haze on the horizon.