The Millionaire Baby — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Millionaire Baby
John Stuart Mill · en
"Hush!" The feeling in that word was not for him. I felt it at once; it
was for her secret, threatened every instant she lingered there by some
move, by some word which might escape a thoughtless child. "You do not
understand me, Justin. You talk with no comprehension of myself or of
the event. Six months from now, if all goes well, you will see that I
have been kind, not cruel. I can not say any more; I should not have
said so much. Go back, dear friend, and let me take the train with
Harry. The sea is not impassable. We shall meet again, and then--" Did
she pause to look behind her down those steps--to make some gesture of
caution to the uneasy child?--"you will forgive me for what seems
cruelty to you now. I can not do differently. With all the world weeping
over the doubtful fate of this little child, you can not expect me
to--to make any promise conditional upon her _death_."
The man's cry drove the irony of the situation out of my mind.
"Puerilities! all puerilities. A man's life--soul--are worth some
sacrifices. If you loved me--" A quick ingathering of his breath, then a
low moan, then the irrepressible cry she vainly sought to hush, "O
Valerie, you are silent! You do not love me! Two years of suffering! two
years of repression, then this delirium of hope, of possibility, and you
_silent_! I will trouble you no more. Gwendolen alive or Gwendolen dead,
what is it to me! I--"
"Hush! there is no doubt on that topic; the child is _dead_. Let that be
understood between us." This was whispered, and whispered very low, but
the air seemed breathless at that moment and I heard her. "This is my
last word to you. You will have your fortune, whether you have my love
or not. Remember that, and--"
"Auntie, make Dinah move away; I want to see the man you are talking
to."
Gwendolen had spoken.
XXIII
A CORAL BEAD
"What's that?"
It was Mr. Rathbone who first found voice.
"To what a state have I come when in every woman's face, even in hers
who is dearest, I see expressions I no longer understand, and in every
child's voice catch the sound of Gwendolen's?"
"Harry's voice is not like Gwendolen's," came in desperate protest from
the ready widow. A daring assertion for her to make to him who had often
held this child in his arms for hours together. "You are not yourself,
Justin. I am sorry. I--I--" Almost she gave her promise, almost she
risked her future, possibly his, by saying, under the stress of her
fears, what her heart did not prompt her to, when--
A quick move on her part, a low cry on his, and he came rushing up the
steps.
I had advanced at her hesitating words and shown myself.
When Mr. Rathbone was well up the terrace (he hardly honored me with a
look as he went by), I slowly began my descent to where she stood with
her back toward me and her arms thrown round the child she had evidently
called to her in her anxiety to conceal the little beaming face from
this new intruder.