"Now take me to _her_," she said. Whether she meant Mrs. Carew or
Gwendolen, I never knew.
I now saw that the hour had come for telling her that she no longer need
have any fear of Doctor Pool. Whatever she contemplated must be done
with a true knowledge of where she stood and to just what extent her
secret remained endangered. I do not know if she felt grateful. I almost
think that for the first few minutes she felt rather frightened than
relieved to find herself free to act as her wishes and the preservation
of her place in her husband's heart and the world's regard impelled her.
For she never for a moment seemed to doubt, that now the doctor was gone
I would yield to her misery and prove myself the friend she had begged
me to be from the first. She turned herself toward me and sought to read
my face, but it was rather to find out what I expected of her than what
she had yet to fear from me. I noted this and muttered some words of
confidence; but her mood had already changed, and they fell on deaf
ears.
I was not present at the meeting of the two women. That is, I remained
in what they would call a private parlor, while Mrs. Ocumpaugh passed
into the inner room, where she knew she would find Mrs. Carew and the
child. Nor did I hear much. Some words came through the partition. I
caught most of Mrs. Carew's explanation of how she came to give up her
new-born child. She was an actress at the time with a London success to
her credit, but with no hold as yet in this country. She was booked for
a tour the coming season; the husband who might have seen to the child
was dead; she had no friends, no relatives here save a brother poorer
than herself, and the mother instinct had not awakened. She bartered her
child away as she would have parted with any other encumbrance likely to
interfere with her career. But--here her voice rose and I heard
distinctly: "A fortune was suddenly left me. An old admirer dying abroad
bequeathed me two million dollars, and I found myself rich, admired and
independent, with no one on earth to care for or to share the happiness
of what seemed to me, after the brilliant life I had hitherto led, a
dreary inaction. Love had no interest for me. I had had a husband, and
that part of my nature had been satisfied. What I wanted now--and the
wish presently grew into a passion--was my child. From passion it grew
to mania. Knowing the name of her to whom I had yielded it (I had
overheard it in the doctor's office), I hunted up your residence and
came one day to Homewood.