The Millionaire Baby — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Millionaire Baby
John Stuart Mill · en
I did not carry her this time across the driveway; but when we
parted in the library, where I always spent an hour before
retiring, I picked out a lily from a vase of flowers standing on my
desk and held it out to her. She stared at it for a moment, quite
as white as the lily, then she slowly put out her hand and took it.
I felt no mercy after that, and bade her good-night with the remark
that I should have to write far into the morning, and that she need
not worry over my light, which I should not probably put out till
she was half through with her night's rest.
For answer, she dropped the lily. I found it next morning lying
withered and brown in the hall-way.
That light did burn far into the morning; but I was not there to
trim it. Before the fatal hour had struck, I had left the house and
made my way to the pavilion. As I crossed the sward I saw the gleam
of a lantern at the masthead of a small boat riding near our own
landing-place, and I understood where he was at this hour, and by
what route he hoped to take my darling. "A route she will never
travel," thought I, striving to keep out of my mind and conscience
the vision of another route, another travel, which that sweet young
body might take if my mood held and my purpose strengthened.
There was no moon that night, and the copse in which our pavilion
stands was like a blot against the starless heavens. As I drew near
it, my dog, the invariable companion of my walks, lifted a short,
sharp bark from the stables. But I knew whose hand had fastened
him, and I went on without giving him a thought. At the door of the
pavilion I stopped. All was dark within as without, and the silence
was something to overwhelm the heart. She was not there then, nor
was he. But he would be coming soon, and up or down between the
double hedge-rows.
I went to meet him. It was a small detail, but possibly a necessary
one. In her eyes he was probably handsome and gifted with all that
I openly lacked. But he was shallow and small for a man like me to
be concerned about. I laughed inwardly and with very conceivable
scorn as I heard the faint fall of his footsteps in the darkness.
It was nearly two and he meant to be prompt.
Our coming together in that narrow path was very much what I
expected it to be. I had put out my arms and touched the hedge on
either side, so that he could not escape me. When I heard him
drawing close, I found the voice I had not had for her, and
observed very quietly and with the cold politeness of a messenger:
"My wife finds herself indisposed since the ball, and begs to be
excused from joining you in the pleasant sail you proposed to her."
That, and no more; except that when he started and almost fell into
my arms, I found strength to add: