"Let me imagine some. Say that it was night, late night, at an hour when
the most hardened amongst us are in a peculiarly responsive condition;
say that he had been, spending hours near the house of the woman he had
long loved but had quite despaired of winning in his greatly hampered
condition, and with the fever of this longing upon him, but restrained
by emotions the nature of which we can not surmise, had now found his
way down to the river--to the spot where boats have clustered and men
crouched in the gruesome and unavailing search we know of; say that he
hung there long over the water, gazing down in silence, in solitude,
alone, as he thought, with his own conscience and the suggestions
offered by that running stream where some still think, despite facts,
despite all the probabilities, that Gwendolen has found rest, and when
his heart was full, should be seen to strike his breast and utter, with
a quick turn of his face up the hill, this one word, 'Guilty'?"
"What would I think? This: That being overwrought by the struggle you
mention (a struggle we can possibly understand when we consider the
unavoidable consciousness which must be his of the great change which
would be effected in all his prospects if Gwendolen should not be
found), he gave the name of guilt to feelings which some would call
simply human."
"Ellie, you are an oracle." This thought of hers had been my thought
ever since I had had time really to reflect upon the matter. "I wonder
if you will have an equally wise reply to give to my next question?"
"I can not say. I speak from intuition; I am not really wise."
"Intuition is above wisdom. Does your intuition tell you that Mrs. Carew
is the true friend she professes to be to Mrs. Ocumpaugh?"
"Ah, that is a different thing!"
The clear brow I loved--there! how words escape a man!--lost its
smoothness and her eyes took on a troubled aspect, while her words came
slowly.
"I do not know how to answer that offhand. Sometimes I have felt that
her very soul was knit to that of Mrs. Ocumpaugh, and again I have had
my doubts. But never deep ones; never any such as would make it easy for
me to answer the question you have just put me."
"Was her love for Gwendolen sincere?" I asked.
"Oh, yes; oh, yes. That is, I always thought so, and with no
qualification, till something in her conduct when she first heard of
Gwendolen's disappearance--I can not describe it--gave me a sense of
disappointment. She was shocked, of course, and she was grieved, but not
hopelessly so. There was something lacking in her manner--we all felt
it; Mrs. Ocumpaugh felt it, and let her dear friend go the moment she
showed the slightest inclination to do so."
"There were excuses for Mrs. Carew, just at that time," said I. "You
forget the new interest which had come into her life. It was natural
that she should be preoccupied."