Meanwhile, I had my way with the pavilion. I have shown you my heart,
sometimes at its best, oftenest at its worst. I will show it to you
again in this. I had a wall built round it, close against the thicket in
which it lay embedded. This wall was painted white, and near it I had
lamps placed which were lit at nightfall. Should a figure pass that wall
I could see it from my window. No one could enter that doorway now,
without running the risk of my seeing him from where I sat at my desk.
Did I feel easier? I do not know that I did. I merely followed an
impulse I dared not name to myself.
Two weeks of this final month went by. Then (it was in the evening) some
one came running up from the grounds, with the message that Mrs.
Ocumpaugh had ridden into the gate, but that she was not ready to enter
the house. Would I meet her at the pavilion?
I was in the library, at my desk, with my eyes on the wall, when this
was told me. I had just seen the fierce figure of that unmanageable dog
of mine run by that white surface, and my lips were open to order him
tied up, when he, and everything else in this whole world, was forgotten
in this crushing news of her return. For the three months were not up
and her presence here could mean but one thing--she had found temptation
too much for her, and she had come back to tell me so in obedience to
her promise.
"I will go meet Mrs. Ocumpaugh," I said.
The man stared.
"I will go meet Mrs. Ocumpaugh now," I repeated, and tried to rise.
But my limbs refused; death had entered my heart, and it was some few
minutes before I found myself upon the lawn outside.
When I got there I was trembling and so uncertain of movement that I
tottered at the gate. But seeing signs of her presence within, I
straightened myself and went in.
[Illustration: "I SHOULD NOT HAVE KNOWN THE WOMAN WHO STOOD THERE WITH
MY NAME FORMED ON HER LIPS."]
She was standing at the extreme end of the room when I entered, in the
full light of the solitary moonbeam which shot in at the western
casement. She had thrown aside her hat and coat, and never in all my
life had I seen anything so ethereal as the worn face and wasted form
she thus disclosed. Had it not been for the haunting and pathetic smile
which by some freak of fate gave poignancy to her otherwise infantile
beauty, I should not have known the woman who stood there with my name
formed on her lips.
"Destroyed!" was my thought; and the rage which I felt that moment
against fate flushed my whole being, and my arms went up, not in threat
against her, but to an avenging Heaven, when I heard an impetuous rush,
an angry growl, and the delicate, trembling figure went down under the
leap of the monstrous animal which I had taught to love me, but could
never teach to love her.
In horror and unspeakable anguish of soul I called off the dog; and,
stooping with bitter cries, I took her in my arms.
"Hurt?" I gasped. "Hurt, Aline?" I looked at her anxiously.