"No, no," I cried, crushing my hand against my mouth to keep down the
cry of anguish and despair which tore its way up from my heart. "Before
other hands touch her, other eyes see her, tell me when she began--I
will not say to love me, but to weary for me and--Homewood."
"Perhaps she has told you herself. Here is the letter, sir, she bade me
give you if she did not reach here alive. She wrote it this morning,
after the doctor told her what I have said."
"Give--give--"
She put it in my hand. I glanced at it in the moonlight, read the first
few words, and felt the world reel round me. Thrusting the letter in my
breast, I bade the woman, who watched me with fascinated eyes, to go now
and rouse the house. When she was gone I stepped back into the shadows,
and catching hold of the murderous beast, I dragged him out and about
the wall to a thick clump of bushes. Here I left him and went back to my
darling. When they came in, they found her in my arms. Her head had
fallen back and I was staring, staring, at her white throat.
That night, when all was done for her which could be done, I shut myself
into my library and again opened that precious letter. I give it, to
show how men may be mistaken when they seek to weigh women's souls:
_My Husband:_
I love you. As I shall be dead when you read this, I may say so
without fear of rebuff. I did not love you then; I did not love
anybody; I was thoughtless and fond of pleasure, and craved
affectionate words. He saw this and worked on my folly; but when
his project failed and I saw his boat creep away, I found that what
feeling I had was for the man who had thwarted him, and I felt
myself saved.
If I had not taken cold that night I might have lived to prove
this. I know that you do not love me very much, but perhaps you
would have done so had you seen me grow a little wiser and more
like what your wife should be. I was trying when--O Philo, I can
not write--I can not think. I am coming to you--I
love--forgive--and take me back again, alive or dead. I love you--I
love--
As I finished, the light, which had been burning low, suddenly went out.
The window which opened before me was still unshuttered. Before me,
across the wide spaces of the lawn, shone the pavilion wall, white in
the moonlight. As I stared in horror at it, a trembling seized my whole
body, and the hair on my head rose. The dark figure of a running dog had
passed across it--_the dog which lay dead under the bushes_.
"God's punishment," I murmured, and laid my head down on that pathetic
letter and sobbed.
The morning found me there. It was not till later that the man sent to
bury the dog came to me with the cry, "Something is wrong with the
pavilion! When I went in to close the window I found the ceiling at that
end of the room strangely dabbled. It looks like blood. And the spots
grew as I looked."