It was an act more in line with my partner's talents than my own, but I
could not afford to let this deter me. I had had my chance with her,
face to face. For hours I had been in her company. I had seen her in
various stages of emotion, sometimes real and sometimes assumed, but at
no moment had I been sure of her, possibly because at no moment had she
been sure of me. In our first visit to the bungalow; in her own little
library, during the reading of that engrossing tale by which she had so
evidently attempted to lull my suspicions awakened by her one
irrepressible show of alarm on the scene of Gwendolen's disappearance,
and afterward when she saw that they might be so lulled but not
dispelled; in the cellar; and, above all, in that walled-off room where
we had come across the signs of Gwendolen's presence, which even she
could not disavow, she had felt my eyes upon her and made me conscious
that she had so felt them. Now she must believe them removed, and if I
could but gain the glimpse I speak of I should see this woman as she
was.
I thought I could manage this.
I had listened to the maid's steps as she returned up stairs, and I
believed I knew in what direction they had tended after she reached the
floor above. I would just see if one of the windows on the south side
was lighted, and, if so, if it was in any way accessible.
To make my way through the shrubbery without rousing the attention of
any one inside or out required a circumspection that tried me greatly.
But by dint of strong self-control I succeeded in getting to the
vantage-place I sought, without attracting attention or causing a single
window to fly up. This reassured me, and perceiving a square of light in
the dark mass of wall before me I peered about among the trees
overlooking this part of the building for one I could climb without too
much difficulty.
The one which looked most feasible was a maple with
low-growing-branches, and throwing off my coat I was soon half-way to
its top and on a level, or nearly so, with the window on which I had
fixed my eye.
There were no curtains to this window--the house being half dismantled
in anticipation of Mrs. Carew's departure--but it was still protected by
a shade, and this was drawn down, nearly to the ledge.
But not quite. A narrow space intervened which, to an eye placed where
mine was, offered a peep-hole of more or less satisfactory proportions,
and this space, I soon saw, widened perceptibly from time to time as the
wind caught at the shade and blew it in.
With utmost caution I shifted my position till I could bring my eye
fairly in line with the interior of this room, and finding that the
glimpse given revealed little but a blue wall and some snowy linen, I
waited for the breeze to blow that I might see more.