Mary passed out into the peaceful sunshine of the garden. Lady
Dashwood looked imploringly at Ralph, who smiled in reply. From the
bottom of his heart, he was feeling for the girl, but he did not
falter in his purpose. It was very brave of Mary, but at the same time
very pathetic. Ralph stole after the lonely figure; he found her
standing by the old sundial in the garden. Her fingers were tracing
idly over the quaint inscription on the stone. Ralph could see that
her eyes were filled with tears.
"Is there anything I can do to help you?" he asked.
"I'm afraid not," Mary whispered. "And you are the only friend I have,
besides Lady Dashwood. I have not the art of making friends: I never
had sympathy with the pastimes and pleasures of the ordinary girl of
my class; I did not feel lonely here, because it was so lovely a
place. Dashwood Hall was always sufficient for me. And now when I come
to leave it, it breaks my heart to go. You will laugh at me perhaps,
but I have a strange feeling as if I had the whole world to myself and
that there was nobody else in it. It is as if everybody had turned
away from me. There was even something that hurt me today in the way
that Mr. Mayfield let me know that I was free as far as he was
concerned. I dread the thought of living by myself in London, the idea
makes me tremble. I, who have been so cold and proud, will have to
approach people and ask favours at their hands. I hope you understand
me; it is dreadful when nobody understands me."
Ralph made no reply for a moment, he was afraid to trust his own
voice.
"You are a very woman," he said at length. "With your pride and your
coldness there are the same impulses and passions common to yourself
and the meanest of us. As to this pride of yours, I regard it as a
hateful thing. What is a Dashwood living on a fortune that none of you
have ever earned, compared with the man or woman who has risen
superior to circumstances and made an honoured name in the world? The
girl who goes out and gets her own living, or to support a widowed
mother, is far superior to you. But I say these things loving you with
my whole heart and soul and being, and hope that some day I shall call
you my wife. I want to see all that harshness and coldness of yours
cast to the wind, I want to see your face sweet in sympathy with poor
humanity. But you are not going the lonely way as you seem to imagine.
I am going to look after you; I will not be far away. For the present
my work is finished here, and there are powerful calls that take me to
London also in a day or two. You will let me see you, Mary; you will
let me bring you and my young artist friend together?"