The Nether Millstone — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Nether Millstone
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They had been very quiet for a long time as they sat in the rose
garden looking over the park. They could see the dappled deer under
the great oaks; the shadow of the fine old house lay behind. There was
something very soothing and peaceful about the picture. It was Ralph
who spoke presently; he had Mary's hand in his, and she did not draw
it away.
"It is a pity to lose this," he said, "to know that it has gone for
ever. Mary, you were better and braver far than you knew, when you
turned your back on Dashwood Hall."
"Was I?" Mary asked absently. "It will always be a sadness and a
sorrow to me, more from the knowledge of what I might have some day
made the place than anything else. But I need not dwell on that. I
have my living to get now."
"And I suppose I have mine," Ralph said. "Mary, you know what is on
the tip of my tongue. Could you share that lot with me? But I know
that you would; I know what your feelings are. You told me the night
you came back here; you said that my prophecy had come true; that you
had returned to ask my pardon on your knees. Do you regret that?"
"No," Mary said resolutely. "I do not regret it for a moment. Because
it was true then, and it is truer now. It was Connie who taught me
that lesson, I think. She pointed out to me what a good thing a man's
love was. And when I thought that I had lost you, why, then I knew
what my mind was. If I am worth the taking, Ralph----"
"My darling, you were always worth the taking," Ralph cried. "Even in
the days of your pride I had dreams of the sweet Mary that would like
you to love her, and behold, here she is! And you are prepared to
share the lot of a poor man without even a pedigree?"
Mary swayed towards her lover, and he caught her in his eager arms.
The next minute her face was hidden on his breast, happy tears rolling
down her cheeks.
"Don't," she whispered. "Oh, please don't remind me of that, Ralph.
From the bottom of my heart I love you; I must have loved you from the
very first. What does it matter what you are, so long as you are what
you are--a good man, with a kind heart for a foolish girl like me? I
am prepared to share your lot, and go where you like, Ralph; anywhere
you choose to take me. We shall be very poor, I suppose, but that does
not matter. I am glad, _glad_ that the day came when I had to leave
the Hall."
"And if you never return you will not regret it, Mary?"
"No, Ralph, not with you by my side. And as to poverty, why, it could
not be worse than what I have gone through lately. We shall be very
poor, Ralph."
"Not so very poor," Ralph smiled. There was nobody near to see them,
so the girl's head rested happily on Ralph's shoulder, his arm round
her waist. "Dearest, I have a confession to make to you. We are not
poor at all."