The Nether Millstone — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Nether Millstone
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"Fortunate?" Mary exclaimed. "An incident that renders my father and
myself penniless!"
"Yes. It prevents you becoming the wife of Horace Mayfield. Directly
he hears of this thing he will turn his back on you for ever. He is
too much a man of the world to waste time in idle regrets; he will
look out for another to take your place. On the whole, it seems to me
that Fate has been very kind to you."
"Indeed." Mary's voice was very cold, her face colder still. "You seem
to be glad."
"I _am_ glad. I am rejoiced to find that Providence is not going to
allow you to wreck your happiness and imperil your future in this way.
Nothing could please me better than to see you dependent upon your own
exertions for a living. You will be all the better for it; it will
cleanse and purify you. And then you will discover that the best thing
in the world for a good woman is a good man's love. It is my love for
you, Mary, that makes me take this view of things, that impels me to
rejoice in the fact that you are nearer to me tonight than you have
ever been before. And some day you will own it."
"Never!" Mary cried passionately. "Oh, you make me hate you, you make
me forget how much I owe you. I could never become your wife."
Ralph smiled. There was something very soothing in the sweetness of
the night. Many a time afterward that scene rose up before his mind.
"You _shall_ be my wife," he said in tones of quiet power. "The scales
will fall from your eyes and you will ask me to forgive you. Oh, my
dear, I know the beauty of your true nature better than you know it
yourself. I can see it all before me as clearly as if I were endowed
with the gift of prophecy. We all have our lesson to learn, and it is
no fault of yours that the lesson has come so late. And when my
confession has followed yours, we shall know the meaning of true
happiness, but not before."
As if he had said the final word, Ralph turned in the direction of the
house. A world of passionate scorn, defiance, anger trembled on Mary's
parted lips. How dare this man, how dare any man, talk to her like
this? And yet at the same time the girl was fully aware of the power
and masterful purpose behind Ralph's words. She was glad in her inmost
heart to know that he cared for her so much. After all, Mary had her
dreams of love and romance like other girls. She was dimly conscious
of the sweet and tender womanhood that underlay her pride and ice. And
she knew that no scorn or invective could turn Ralph from his purpose.
"Very well," she said resignedly. "You are a strong man, and I am a
weak woman. I daresay you imagine yourself to be paying me a
compliment. But I should put that dream aside if I were you, for it is
never likely to come true."
"It is no dream," Ralph smiled. "Nor is the happiness so very far off.
Now let me take you back to the house again, for it is getting late."