The other Miller girl — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The other Miller girl
John Stuart Mill · en
As Mr. Langley walked slowly back to Farleigh in the early dusk of the
cloudy November day, he reflected upon his visit, upon the beautiful
baby, upon what had carried him thither and upon Anna’s unaccountable
unwillingness to gratify his wife’s not unnatural desire. But he said
to himself it wasn’t really unaccountable--it only seemed so to him.
How serious the girl had looked as she stood with the baby in her arms,
its little face hidden on her shoulder--and how staunch and true! And
when all was said, she had simply refused to neglect her duty as she
saw it. Quite likely, too, she saw more clearly than he. Certainly
there was nothing selfish in her standpoint, while he, for his part,
could not so absolve himself. He hoped he had not urged her unduly.
Nevertheless, the situation was not normal. Anna’s mother was rightly
troubled. The girl was too young to shoulder the responsibility she had
taken upon herself. After the strain of those hard years in the city,
she ought to be free to devote herself to school and a school-girl’s
pleasures with only the normal home duties of such an one. Someone
ought to adopt the baby--someone in Farleigh so that Anna need not be
separated wholly from him. Someone--Mr. Langley stopped and put forth
considerable effort to dislodge a stone between the flags with his
walking stick. As he went on again, he said to himself that it would
be a simple matter to put through. If they knew there was a chance, it
seemed to him that people would simply flock to the Millers’ in crowds
to beg for that most engaging baby. How wise the little fellow had
looked as he listened to the watch!
Sighing vague, he hastened on as if he wished to escape something. But
with all his speed, he was unable to do so, and depression settled upon
him. He supposed that it was because he was drawing near the parsonage
and would have to disappoint his wife.
He went directly to her room, realising, even in his preoccupation,
that he owed the privilege to Anna. For only since she had entered
the wedge, had he fallen into the habit of seeking his wife at odd
moments. And though she rather tolerated than welcomed his visits,
he was grateful for even tolerance. For her long illness and silence
and desire for seclusion had estranged husband and wife almost as
effectually as bitter feeling might have done.
Mrs. Langley sat in her cushioned chair in the dark, gloomy room,
awaiting the word he was to bring. Her eyes were weak from headache and
want of sunshine and out-of-door air, and in winter she had her tea
very early to avoid lighting the heavily shaded lamp. Both Mr. Langley
and Bell Adams felt that, having admitted Anna Miller, if Mrs. Langley
would also let in the sunshine she might utterly banish neuralgia.
But neither ventured to make the suggestion. She had already had her
tea, and when he entered the room, her husband felt rather than saw her
eager questioning gaze.