That night as she lay in bed, she said to herself that that was the
end of everything. And she feared that she was more relieved than
disappointed. It would be cruelly hard to part with the baby and her
heart leaped at the thought of keeping him always. And she owned to her
innermost heart that she should be glad of a rest from going to the
parsonage. She would have more time for Joe, Junior, and for Alice.
She and Alice could enjoy him together, and--dear me, she had quite
forgotten those absurd rumours about Alice! She must do something at
once.
She was sincerely sorry so far as Mr. Langley was concerned. But she
had done her level best. She would have given him the baby though it
had half killed her, but she had failed to ‘put it over’. She must
always be sorry for that part of it, for most likely he would grow old
with a vengeance now and she would be obliged to sit by and watch him
going headlong down hill. Well, and she was sorry for Mrs. Langley,
too. Somehow, she seemed to have a certain affection for her--a queer,
maternal sort of affection as if a downy yellow chick wanted to mother
and brood an ugly old hen. If only someone had taken her earlier!
The next day was a day of profound discomfort. But on Wednesday, a note
was brought to the Hollow from the parsonage asking Anna to come to see
Mrs. Langley on Saturday week at two o’clock and bring the baby with
her. Consternation seized upon her, and settled into despair. But she
felt constrained, and before night sent back word that they would come.
At first she was thankful for the ten days respite. Then she felt the
suspense would kill her. But very shortly she had no time to worry over
that or anything else except after she got into bed at night and then
she was too tired. For suddenly Alice Lorraine began to seek and claim
her companionship as she had never done before, and the girls became
practically inseparable.
Anna always enjoyed Alice, and with Alice and Joe together would have
been blissfully happy but for the lurking apprehension with regard
to the Saturday facing her. And when she forgot that, it was because
she recollected the mystery connected with Alice, who had ceased her
wandering and seemed to her mother and Miss Penny to be herself again.
But Anna knew better: she wasn’t at all the same girl she had been
before the day Anna had found her at the dark cottage in the lane. She
had moments of high spirits, but they did not last. She clung to Anna,
but she was still nervous and absent-minded. Anna was forced to guess
that the reason she no longer went back and forth between the Hollow
and the lane was because the person she met there or the occasion of
her going was no longer thereabout. But although Alice was not happy
nor at her ease, neither was she really unhappy as she must have been
had it--whatever it had been--been over and the parting final.