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The shadow between them; $b or, A blighted name
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“Can I believe her? How could she help loving him?” Eva thought, with
secret bitter jealousy that she tried to hide under a careless smile as
she faltered:
“No, no, I must not, cannot meet him--just yet! Besides, Reggie will be
calling on me, you know. So you must send away your caller early that
you may meet my guest.”
Thus it was that Ada’s visit kept alive in hapless Eva’s heart the
cruel pain of her hopeless love.
And to make matters worse, Reginald Hamilton did not call that evening,
so Eva did not have his presence to distract her attention from Ada’s
visitor.
He sent an excuse, saying he was detained by the unexpected arrival of
an English friend, to whom he must do the honors of the city. He would
call, if permitted, the next evening, bringing his friend with him.
But Doctor Ludington did not fail to keep his appointment with Ada.
Eva had no right to be jealous, but she could not help seeing how
beautifully her friend was dressed and what a pleasant sparkle of
excitement shone in her clear, brown eyes. She envied Ada beyond all
telling the happiness of that evening.
To be near him for more than an hour, to listen to his musical voice
and his pleasant laughter, to gaze unchecked on his handsome face, to
touch his firm, warm hand in greeting and parting--oh, how she envied
Ada such perfect bliss!
She sighed to herself:
“How can I bear his presence in the house, yet apart from me, the guest
of another! I am afraid I should be listening at the door for the tones
of his voice; perhaps be unable to resist the temptation of entering
and sharing with Ada the joy of his presence. I--I--will not remain in
the house! I will go off to the theatre--or somewhere!”
Alas! Auntie was lying down with one of her spells of neuralgia, and
papa was off to Philadelphia for a few days on business. She could not
go anywhere unchaperoned.
She decided to seclude herself in her own room, where not a sound of
his coming could penetrate to her ears. She would get a thrilling novel
and read it so as to lose herself in its pages and temporarily forget
the world.
Alas! the gifted author seemed dull and prosy to excited Eva. She could
not help listening for the ring of the doorbell; she knew when his card
was brought to Ada, and when the latter went down to receive him in the
pretty reception room next the drawing-room.
Her heart gave a wild leap in her breast and tears sprang to her eyes.
She dashed them away, exclaiming to herself:
“I am a little silly, as Ada said! It is nothing to me whom he calls on
or whom he marries. I have no claim on him!”
She threw the book aside. Then she rang for her maid to bring her some
fruit and chocolate bonbons, her favorite sweets. She thought, perhaps,
that aching pain came from hunger.
She remembered that she had scarcely touched anything at dinner. And
now the fruit and the sweets tasted bitter, she said petulantly to her
maid.