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“I thank you, but Miss Winton has taken the liberty to give me one. I
do not care for any more!” he replied, with freezing indifference that
cut her to the heart.
“Now I am quite sure that he loves Ada! He prefers her flowers to mine!
Oh, I wish she had not come to be my cruel rival in his heart!”
From his careless tone and proud air she could never have dreamed that
he was thinking:
“What a falsehood I told her, poor little Eva! Ah, if she could know
how I have treasured all the sweet flowers she used to give me, and for
which she let me thank her by taking her in my arms and kissing the
sweet red lips that speak to me so coldly now!”
They stood looking at each other in momentary silence, with hungry eyes
and hearts that yearned to each other across the gulf they might not
bridge--the swift-running stream of a cousin’s blood.
And yet it is possible, that, if they had mutually guessed the passion
of each other’s heart, they might have overleaped all barriers and
sprung into each other’s arms, so mighty and resistless is the power of
love!
But she thought him fickle and resentful; he believed her cold and
unforgiving. So that even as they gazed at each other the rushing
stream grew wider, forcing them apart.
While she struggled for calmness he smiled coldly and said:
“I am very glad that you are recovered from your slight injury, but do
not trouble yourself to go out too soon to show Miss Winton the sights
of the city. I shall have ample leisure to escort her around, and shall
find the greatest pleasure in doing so,” and, with a parting bow that
chilled her with its coldness, he took an abrupt leave.
He could not have borne the pain of this meeting a moment longer--not
one; but she misunderstood him, as he intended. His pride and his
jealousy of Hamilton were up in arms. She should not know he cared.
He hurried out with Ada, and poor, humiliated Eva stood there drooping
among the flowers like a crushed lily.
CHAPTER XXXI.
“WE SHALL MEET AGAIN!”
Doctor Ludington, hurrying away from Fifth Avenue, would not take a cab
to the hospital. He preferred to walk the long distance in the nipping
cold of the December night, and thus cool the fever of unrest burning
in his veins.
He felt a passionate anger against Eva for her seeming coldness and
indifference, for so well had the poor girl worn her mask of pride that
it appeared to him quite genuine. He was full of angry resentment at
what seemed to him the cruelest inconstancy and forgetfulness.
How cool and calm she had been, while he was sure that he had betrayed
his own heart by his very endeavors to hide it. He wondered how she
could have transferred her love so quickly from him to the handsome
young New Yorker that rumor assigned as her betrothed.
He resolved angrily that she should never know how she had wounded him
by her heartlessness. She should not think he was wearing the willow
for her sake.