"Just so!" Macfarlane observed. "At the same time it is as well not to
give her a chance of holding you back."
Which piece of advice served only as an irritant. The disparagement of
one's friends, or of one's opinions, forces the sincere believer in
either into a sturdy opposition.
It was a matter of extreme gratification to Matheson that he had found
Brenda Upton again. Her family history concerned him very little. She
was such a good comrade. He had not realised until he rediscovered her
how much he stood in need of the friendship she could give him.
Friendship with a woman who is sympathetic, and young enough to be
attractive as well as companionable, fills the blanks in a man's life.
He was not in love with Brenda; he realised that perfectly; but he was
fond of her. If he retained from his intercourse with her none of the
glowing memories he recalled in connexion with Honor, her society
afforded him a quiet pleasure that was restful and satisfying. She
suggested home to a man who knew no home, and peace to a restless
spirit, like the calm of inland waters following a voyage in tempestuous
seas. Honor had been a dream, a beautiful inspiration. This other girl
possessed a charm of an altogether different quality. Already she was
becoming for him a symbol of familiar and essential things.
CHAPTER TWENTY THREE.
Matheson dressed early for his meeting with Brenda, dressed with unusual
care. A strange excitement held him. The renewal of this friendship
meant more to him than its beginning had signified. He was proceeding
towards his object with eyes open, proceeding deliberately with, he was
aware, one ultimate end in view. His mind, despite its excitement, was
quite steady of purpose. The complexities of life were resolving surely
into a quite simple exposition of the human requirement. He had reached
the stage when a man knows what it is he wants and is bent upon its
attainment.
He met Brenda at the tramway. She wore a dark, rather shabby, coat and
skirt, and she was manifestly shy. They climbed to the top of the tram,
and for the first half-mile of the journey neither of them found much to
say. The tram was fairly full, and the proximity of strangers made
talking difficult for people who had nothing of a conventional nature to
say to one another.
When they got down at the terminus he tucked her hand within his arm and
started to walk quickly, drawing a long breath of relief when they left
the tram lines and the remaining passengers behind and faced the sea.
"Time rolls back," he said. "This is just like it was in the summer."
"Yes," she agreed; "only the satisfying warmth of summer has gone."
There was something pathetic in her way of saying this; it was as though
she lamented not only the summer's geniality, but the satisfying warmth
of their comradeship. He gripped her hand tightly, and looked down into
the serious face.