The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
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"It is always wise to go slow," he said.
Then he caught up his hat and stepped out on to the stoep and went to
meet the horses.
Honor slipped from the saddle, and relinquished the reins to him, making
some remark about the warmth of the day to which he made no response.
He shifted the rein to his left hand, and raised the right, which he
proffered the guest.
"You had better dismount," he said. "I will take the horses to the
stable."
Matheson offered a protest; at least he would accompany him; but Krige
was firmly insistent. Finally Matheson swung himself from the saddle
and followed Honor to the house, while Krige, whistling for a boy as he
went, led the horses away.
Matheson had a persuasion that for some reason or other Krige did not
like him. He had felt that on the stoep the previous night. Why, he
wondered, should a man dislike another of whom he knew nothing, whom he
met now for the first time? It was not reasonable. Racial prejudice
possibly influenced him to some extent. It was obvious that as a family
the Kriges were antagonistic to British supremacy; but that in itself
seemed insufficient to justify personal animus, particularly in view of
the fact of Mrs Krige's nationality. Having regard to that last point,
the attitude of the family towards all things British puzzled him. He
felt that in her quiet acceptance of her children's view, this
Englishwoman displayed a strange disloyalty. It would have been
altogether finer and more natural had she, through her marriage,
attempted to bring the two white races in the Colony into closer and
more sympathetic relations. She might have inculcated in this new
generation a love for the best ideals of both races. In doing which she
would have rendered a greater service to South Africa than in fostering
racial jealousy, would have accomplished some worthier end than the poor
satisfaction born of harbouring bitter feeling and petty distrust.
He resented this lade of patriotism in a countrywoman of his own, it
forced him into a strong and quite sincere opposition. Love of country
is the moral backbone of the individual; a vaunted contempt for one's
birthright is a tacit admission of unworthiness of the privilege it
confers.
He stepped on to the stoep in Honor's wake, and went along to his room
and entered by the window.
"Don't be long," Honor called after him. "We are late."
He made what haste he could; and entered the living-room to find the
delayed breakfast steaming on the table, and every one obviously waiting
amid a savoury smell of coffee and grilled meat Honor was not present.
She came in when the rest were seated, looking cool and beautiful and
fresh in a white muslin frock with blue ribbons, that drew Andreas
Krige's eyes in her direction in silent disapproval.
"I am sorry to be so late," she said. "We rode farther than I intended.
It was all so interesting that I did not think of the time."
"What was interesting?" Freidja asked.