The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
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"So you remember?" She looked up, smiling, "There isn't any choice
to-day. I have a letter to carry for Andreas to Cornelius Nel. The
Nels' farm is about five miles from here. You will see it when we top
the rise."
"Isn't it somewhat early for making calls?" he asked.
"We need only leave the letter," she said. "We will stop there on our
way home. It is possible they will want us to stay to breakfast; but if
you prefer--"
"Oh, please!" he interrupted. "It's for you to decide."
"Yes. But you don't understand. Cornelius hates the English; his
brother, Herman, is different. Often they do not speak for months as a
result of political disagreement. The farm is jointly theirs, but they
have separate houses."
"In that case," he said, smiling involuntarily, "if we remain to
breakfast, it would seem wise that you should breakfast with Cornelius
and I with Herman. Are they married, by the way?"
"Cornelius is."
"And does Mrs Nel share her husband's prejudices?"
Honor reflected a moment. Then unexpectedly she broke into a laugh.
"Mrs Nel is of the opinion that had the Lord intended the different
peoples of the earth to remain on friendly terms. He would never have
contrived the confusion of tongues."
"Ah!" Matheson's smile broadened. "There is a good deal to be urged in
defence of her argument," he said.
"Do you know,"--Honor glanced at him swiftly--"I believe they will like
you. You have none of the irritating characteristics of the average
Englishman."
"Look here!" he remonstrated. "When you disparage my countrymen, you
disparage me. I wish you wouldn't say those things. I don't know how
far you are in earnest, but I can't take it as a compliment when you
dissociate me from my country. Why not practise a little forbearance?"
"I think we will not remain to breakfast with the Nels," was all she
said in response, and rode on with her face turned from him and her chin
held high.
Matheson felt exasperated. The qualities which appealed to her,
tolerance and a sympathetic understanding, were inexplicably entirely
lacking in herself: she did not desire to take any but a personal view.
The injuries which she, with her family, refused to forget were ancient
scars now; but they kept these scars from healing by constant probing,
indifferent to the fact that the unhealed wound is painful only to the
sufferer. She had not any sense of fair play, he decided, for all her
English blood.
It was rather a silent ride they took that morning. Matheson, sensible
of the tension, of the curious thrill of antagonism which he felt was
common in both, held to his point stubbornly and refused to make
overtures. He was not in the wrong; it was not for him to offer
reparation.