The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
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"Miss Krige does me an injustice," Matheson protested. "The mines lured
me only for a brief while. Engineering is my profession. I go back to
it when I leave here."
"So!" remarked Oom Koos, and smoked reflectively. "Do you make a long
stay at Benfontein?" he asked.
"I have made a long stay," Matheson answered. "I leave to-morrow, if
that is convenient to Mrs Krige."
"To-morrow, eh? I am going by De Aar to-morrow. If it suits you, I
will be very pleased to drive you."
This arrangement was so entirely convenient, and so satisfactory in that
it fixed the day and settled definitely the time for his departure, that
Matheson's reluctant acceptance of the kindly intentioned offer sounded
somewhat ungracious even in his own ears. He was amazed at himself.
Here was an offer which exactly suited his plans, and which relieved the
Kriges of the necessity of driving him into town, and he felt resentful
at having to avail himself of it. At the back of his mind had loomed
the hope that Honor would drive with him to De Aar. For some reason of
her own Honor appeared equally dissatisfied with the arrangement. She
listened to Matheson's halting acceptance, and to her mother's mildly
uttered protest against this sudden departure, with thinly disguised
impatience, breaking in on Mrs Krige's expressions of regret.
"It all depends on what hour you start, Oom Koos. Mr Matheson has an
engagement to ride with me to-morrow morning," she announced.
"Certainly. I am not forgetting that," Matheson said promptly.
Oom Koos looked from one to the other and smoked deliberately and
smiled.
"Mijn Maachtij!" He delivered himself of a deep breath. "I have been
young myself, Honor. When you release Mr Matheson I will drive him to
the town. That shall not interfere with your pleasure."
Inexplicably, now that his departure was definitely fixed, though the
responsibility for its settlement was his, Matheson chafed at the
thought of going, and felt quite unjustly aggrieved with the worthy
Dutchman's amiable endeavour to suit his convenience. He considered Oom
Koos officious. And then he fell to blaming Honor. Why had she not
attempted to dissuade him that morning? Why had she taken the
announcement of his departure so calmly, showing an indifference that
seemed to indicate that his going affected her no more than the going of
any other chance visitor? Simply she had appeared not to care; and that
hurt him. Bidding good-bye to her would not, he knew, be an easy matter
for him. It would have consoled him somewhat to know that it would not
have left her unaffected. He had a persuasion that though he was
leaving Benfontein it would not be for ever: some day he would travel
again in that direction; and the next time he came it would not be on
another man's business.