The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
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"I have no knowledge of Dutch," he answered. "I have not read the
letter--if I were sufficiently curious, and also sufficiently
dishonourable to wish to do so, I could not. I was interested in the
German signature of a man I always believed to be English."
She still, he saw, disbelieved him. He had never felt so passionately
angry with any one in his life before.
"If I had read the letter I doubt whether it could give me more
information of this miserable business than I have already," he added in
tones like edged steel.
"We will see," she rejoined, and spread the letter on the table, while
he remained in a cold amazed silence, and read it aloud.
"My dear Andreas,--
"I am in communication with Piet van der Byl, and friendly burghers in
the F.S. You will be glad to hear that we have every reason to hope
for a good response in the event of such happenings as are predicted.
The northern and eastern areas are sympathetic. Every quarter which I
have tapped responds with the most encouraging readiness. I have
little doubt that the desire which lies so near to our hearts will be
achieved entirely to our satisfaction and sooner than we expect.
"The messenger who delivers this has no knowledge of the taal. He is,
I believe, a fool, who can be bought over if judiciously approached.
You can safely send by him an answer to this. I shall be glad to have
some account of the attitude your district takes up, and the names of
any men who are likely to be of service to the cause. The time is not
yet fulfilled when our expectations can be realised, but I feel it
approaching, and it is well to be prepared.
"Faithfully yours,
"H.K. Holmann."
When she had finished reading Honor folded the letter deliberately and
looked up.
"You have gained a little information, haven't you?" she asked; and
Matheson realised that she referred to the insulting allusion to himself
in the letter.
Why she had read the letter to him he failed to understand; he could not
divine her reason. Quite possibly she was not moved by any reason; some
swift inexplicable impulse more probably governed her action. He
believed that already she regretted having yielded to this impulse; he
read signs of a growing distress in her look.
"I have gained a little information," he answered--"nothing that
matters. I wish I could feel obliged to you for this unlooked-for
display of confidence, but unfortunately it doesn't carry any sort of
conviction. You've no trust in me; your words prove that. You think,
with the writer of the letter, that I'm a fool who can be made use of,
and who isn't dangerous, who doesn't in short count--"