The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
As he spoke, a sudden silence fell upon us all. Something in his accent
touched my heart to a strange sense of sorrow and yearning, and the
Countess of Elton's dark eyes, languid with long suffering, grew soft as
though with repressed tears.
"Sometimes," he continued more lightly--"just at odd moments--I like to
believe in Paradise. It is a relief, even to a hardened sinner like
myself, to fancy that there _may_ exist something in the way of a world
better than this one."
"Surely sir," said Miss Charlotte Fitzroy severely--"you believe in
Heaven?"
He looked at her and smiled slightly.
"Madame, forgive me! I do not believe in the clerical heaven. I know you
will be angry with me for this frank confession! But I cannot picture
the angels in white smocks with goose wings, or the Deity as a somewhat
excitable personage with a beard. Personally I should decline to go to
any heaven which was only a city with golden streets; and I should
object to a sea of glass, resenting it as a want of invention on the
part of the creative Intelligence. But----do not frown, dear Miss
Fitzroy!--I do believe in Heaven all the same,--a different kind of
heaven,--I often see it in my dreams!"
He paused, and again we were all silent, gazing at him. Lady Sibyl's
eyes indeed, rested upon him with such absorbed interest, that I became
somewhat irritated, and was glad, when turning towards the Countess once
more, he said quietly.
"Shall I give you some music now, Madame?"
She murmured assent, and followed him with a vaguely uneasy glance as he
crossed over to the grand piano and sat down. I had never heard him
either play or sing; in fact so far as his accomplishments went, I knew
nothing of him as yet except that he was a perfect master of the art of
horsemanship. With the first few bars he struck I half started from my
chair in amazement;--could a mere pianoforte produce such sounds?--or
was there some witchery hidden in the commonplace instrument, unguessed
by any other performer? I stared around me, bewildered,--I saw Miss
Charlotte drop her knitting abstractedly,--Diana Chesney, lying lazily
back in one corner of the sofa, half closed her eyelids in dreamy
ecstasy,--Lord Elton stood near the fire resting one arm on the
mantelpiece and shading his fuzzy brows with his hand,--and Lady Sibyl
sat beside her mother, her lovely face pale with emotion, while on the
worn features of the invalided lady there was an expression of mingled
pain and pleasure difficult to describe. The music swelled into
passionate cadence,--melodies crossed and re-crossed each other like
rays of light glittering among green leaves,--voices of birds and
streams and tossing waterfalls chimed in with songs of love and playful
merriment;--anon came wilder strains of grief and angry clamour; cries
of despair were heard echoing through the thunderous noise of some
relentless storm,--farewells everlastingly shrieked amid sobs of