The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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Never shall I forget the bewildered amazement of
the scrubby little editor of a sixpenny magazine who met me face to face
thus accompanied in the Park one morning! That he knew the Earl of Elton
by sight was evident, and that he also knew me his apoplectic stare
confessed. He had pompously refused to even read any of my offered
contributions on the ground that I had 'no name,'--and now--! he would
have given a month's salary if I had but condescended to recognize him!
I did not so condescend,--but passed him by, listening to, and laughing
with my intended future father-in-law, who was retailing an extremely
ancient joke for my benefit. The incident was slight, even
trumpery,--yet it put me in a good humour, for one of the chiefest
pleasures I had out of my wealth was the ability to repay with vengeful
interest all the contempt and insult that had beaten me back from every
chance of earning a livelihood while I was poor.
In all my visits to the Eltons, I never saw the paralysed Countess
again. Since the last terrible visitation of her dread disease, she had
not moved. She merely lived and breathed--no more. Lord Elton told me
that the worst part of her illness at present, so far as it affected
those who had to attend upon her, was the particularly hideous
alteration of her face.
"The fact is," he said, not without a shudder--"she's dreadful to look
at,--positively dreadful!--no longer human, you know. She used to be a
lovely woman,--now she is literally frightful. Her eyes
especially;--they are as scared and wild as if she had seen the devil.
Quite an awful expression I assure you!--and it never alters. The
doctors can do nothing--and of course it's very trying for Sibyl, and
everybody."