The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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Sibyl thanked
her, smiling coldly.
"You have given me an emblem of the Soul,"--she said; "No doubt you
remembered I have no soul of my own!"
And her airy laugh had chilled poor Diana 'to the marrow,' as the
warm-hearted little American herself, with tears, assured me.
At this period I saw very little of Rimânez. I was much occupied with my
lawyers on the question of 'settlements.' Messrs Bentham and Ellis
rather objected to the arrangement by which I gave the half of my
fortune to my intended wife unconditionally; but I would brook no
interference, and the deed was drawn up, signed, sealed and witnessed.
The Earl of Elton could not sufficiently praise my 'unexampled
generosity'--my 'noble character;'--and walked about, eulogising me
everywhere, till he almost turned himself into a public advertisement of
the virtues of his future son-in-law. He seemed to have taken a new
lease of life,--he flirted with Diana Chesney openly,--and of his
paralysed spouse with the fixed stare and deathly grin, he never spoke,
and, I imagine, never thought. Sibyl herself was always in the hands of
dressmakers and milliners,--and we only saw each other every day for a
few minutes' hurried chat. On these occasions she was always
charming,--even affectionate; and yet,--though I was full of passionate
admiration and love for her, I felt that she was mine merely as a slave
might be mine; that she gave me her lips to kiss as if she considered I
had a right to kiss them because I had bought them, and for no other
reason,--that her pretty caresses were studied, and her whole behaviour
the result of careful forethought and not natural impulsiveness. I tried
to shake off this impression, but it still remained persistently, and
clouded the sweetness of my brief courtship.