The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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The hour was over,--the boatman rowed me in to land, and I paid and
dismissed him. The sun had completely sunk,--there were dense purple
shadows darkening over the mountains, and one or two small stars faintly
discernible in the east. I walked slowly back to the villa where we were
staying,--a 'dépendance' belonging to the large hotel of the district,
which we had rented for the sake of privacy and independence, some of
the hotel-servants being portioned off to attend upon us, in addition to
my own man Morris, and my wife's maid. I found Sibyl in the garden,
reclining in a basket-chair, her eyes fixed on the after-glow of the
sunset, and in her hands a book,--one of the loathliest of the prurient
novels that have been lately written by women to degrade and shame their
sex. With a sudden impulse of rage upon me which I could not resist, I
snatched the volume from her and flung it into the lake below. She made
no movement of either surprise or offence,--she merely turned her eyes
away from the glowing heavens, and looked at me with a little smile.
"How violent you are to-day, Geoffrey!" she said.
I gazed at her in sombre silence. From the light hat with its pale mauve
orchids that rested on her nut-brown hair, to the point of her daintily
embroidered shoe, her dress was perfect,--and _she_ was perfect. _I_
knew that,--a matchless piece of womanhood ... outwardly! My heart
beat,--there was a sense of suffocation in my throat,--I could have
killed her for the mingled loathing and longing which her beauty roused
in me.
"I am sorry!" I said hoarsely, avoiding her gaze--"But I hate to see you
with such a book as that!"
"You know its contents?" she queried, with the same slight smile.
"I can guess."
"Such things have to be written, they say nowadays,"--she went on--"And,
certainly, to judge from the commendation bestowed on these sort of
books by the press, it is very evident that the wave of opinion is
setting in the direction of letting girls know all about marriage before
they enter upon it, in order that they may do so with their eyes wide
open,--_very_ wide open!" She laughed, and her laughter hurt me like a
physical wound. "What an old-fashioned idea the bride of the poets and
sixty-years-ago romancists seems now!" she continued--"Imagine her!--a
shrinking tender creature, shy of beholders, timid of speech, ...
wearing the emblematic veil, which in former days, you know, used to
cover the face entirely, as a symbol that the secrets of marriage were
as yet hidden from the maiden's innocent and ignorant eyes. Now the veil
is worn flung back from the bride's brows, and she stares unabashed at
everybody,--oh yes, indeed we know quite well what we are doing now when
we marry, thanks to the 'new' fiction!"