The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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"Why, of course!" he responded, thrusting his arm familiarly through
mine--"I had an audience! Two fastidious critics of dramatic art heard
me rant my rantings,--I had to do my best!"
"Two critics?" I repeated perplexedly.
"Yes. You on one side,--Lady Sibyl on the other. Lady Sibyl rose, after
the custom of fashionable beauties at the opera, before the last scene,
in order to get home in good time for supper!"
He laughed wildly and discordantly, and I felt desperately
uncomfortable.
"You must be mistaken Lucio--" I said--"That _I_ listened I admit,--and
it was wrong of me to do so,--but my wife would never condescend ..."
"Ah, then it must have been a sylph of the woods that glided out of the
shadow with a silken train behind her and diamonds in her hair!" he
retorted gaily--"Tut Geoffrey!--don't look so crestfallen. I have done
with Mavis Clare, and she with me. I have not been making love to
her,--I have simply, just to amuse myself, tested her character,--and I
find it stronger than I thought. The combat is over. She will never go
my way,--nor, I fear, shall I ever go hers!"
"Upon my word, Lucio," I said with some irritation--"Your disposition
seems to grow more and more erratic and singular every day!"
"Does it not!" he answered with a droll affectation of interested
surprise in himself--"I am a curious creature altogether! Wealth is mine
and I care not a jot for it,--power is mine and I loathe its
responsibility;--in fact I would rather be anything but what I am! Look
at the lights of your 'home, sweet home' Geoffrey!" this he said as we
emerged from among the trees on to the moonlit lawn, from whence could
be seen the shining of the electric lamps in the drawing-room--"Lady
Sibyl is there,--an enchanting and perfect woman, who lives but to
welcome you to her embracing arms! Fortunate man!--who would not envy
you! Love!--who would, who could exist without it--save me! Who, in
Europe at least, would forego the delights of kissing,--(which the
Japanese by-the-by consider a disgusting habit),--without embraces,--and
all those other endearments which are supposed to dignify the progress
of true love! One never tires of these things,--there is no satiety! I
wish I could love somebody!"
"So you can, if you like,"--I said, with a little uneasy laugh.