The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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"Patience----patience!----" I muttered to myself--"This is a piece of
acting doubtless----such as chanced the other night with Mavis
Clare!----patience!----let us hear this----this comedy!" And, drawing
myself close up against the wall, I leaned there, scarcely drawing
breath, waiting for _her_ voice,--for _his_;--when they spoke I should
know,----yes, I should know all! And I fastened my looks on them as
they stood there,--vaguely wondering even in my tense anguish, at the
fearful light on Lucio's face,--a light which could scarcely be the
reflection of the moon, as he backed the window,--and at the scorn of
his frowning brows. What terrific humour swayed him?--why did he, even
to my stupefied thought appear more than human?--why did his very beauty
seem hideous at that moment, and his aspect fiendish? Hush--hush! _She_
spoke,--my wife,--I heard her every word--heard all and endured all,
without falling dead at her feet in the extremity of my dishonour and
despair!
"I love you!" she wailed--"Lucio, I love you, and my love is killing me!
Be merciful!--have pity on my passion!--love me for one hour, one little
hour!--it is not much to ask, and afterwards,--do with me what you
will,--torture me, brand me an outcast in the public sight, curse me
before Heaven--I care nothing--I am yours body and soul--I love you!"
Her accents vibrated with mad idolatrous pleading,--I listened
infuriated, but dumb. "Hush,--hush!" I told myself "This is a
comedy--not yet played out!" And I waited, with every nerve strained,
for Lucio's reply. It came, accompanied by a laugh, low and sarcastic.
"You flatter me!" he said--"I regret I am unable to return the
compliment!"
My heart gave a throb of relief and fierce joy,--almost I could have
joined in his ironical laughter. She--Sibyl--dragged herself nearer to
him.
"Lucio--Lucio!" she murmured--"Have you a heart? Can you reject me when
I pray to you thus?--when I offer you all myself,--all that I am, or
ever hope to be? Am I so repugnant to you? Many men would give their
lives if I would say to them what I say to you,--but they are nothing to
me--you alone are my world,--the breath of my existence!--ah, Lucio, can
you not believe, will you not realize how deeply I love you!"
He turned towards her with a sudden fierce movement that startled
me,--and the cloud of scorn upon his brows grew darker.