The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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"You think as I do, Lucio!" I said hoarsely--"You feel with me, that a
wife's unchaste thought is as vile as her unchaste act. There is no
excuse,--no palliative for such cruel and abominable ingratitude.
Why,"--and my voice rose unconsciously as I turned fiercely again
towards Sibyl--"Did I not free you and your family from the heavy
pressure of poverty and debt? Have I grudged you anything? Are you not
loaded with jewels?--have you not greater luxuries and liberties than a
queen? And do you not owe me at least some duty?"
"I owe you nothing!" she responded boldly--"I gave you what you paid
for,--my beauty and my social position. It was a fair bargain!"
"A dear and bitter one!" I cried.
"Maybe so. But such as it was, you struck it,--not I. You can end it
when you please,--the law ..."
"The law will give you no freedom in such a case,"--interposed Lucio
with a kind of satirical urbanity--"A judicial separation on the ground
of incompatibility of temper might be possible certainly--but would not
that be a pity? Her ladyship is unfortunate in her tastes,--that is
all!--she selected me as her _cavaliere servente_, and I refused the
situation,--hence there is nothing for it but to forget this unpleasant
incident, and try to live on a better understanding for the future----"
"Do you think"--said my wife, advancing with her proud head uplifted in
scorn, the while she pointed at me--"Do you think I will live with him
after what he has seen and heard to-night? What do you take me for?"
"For a very charming woman of hasty impulses and unwise
reasoning,"--replied Lucio, with an air of sarcastic gallantry--"Lady
Sibyl, you are illogical,--most of your sex are. You can do no good by
prolonging this scene,--a most unpleasant and trying one to us poor men.
You know how we hate 'scenes'! Let me beg of you to retire! Your duty is
to your husband; pray heaven he may forget this midnight delirium of
yours, and set it down to some strange illness rather than to any evil
intention."
For all answer she came towards him, stretching out her arms in wild
appeal.
"Lucio!" she cried--"Lucio, my love! Good-night!--Good-bye!"
I sprang between him and her advancing form.
"Before my very face!" I exclaimed--"O infamous woman! Have you no
shame?"
"None!" she said, with a wild smile--"I glory in my love for such a king
of worth and beauty! Look at him!--and then look at yourself in the
nearest mirror that reflects so poor and mean a picture of a man! How,
even in your egoism, could you deem it possible for a woman to love
_you_ when _he_ was near! Stand out of the light!--you interpose a
shadow between my god and me!"
As she uttered these mad words, her aspect was so strange and unearthly,
that out of sheer stupefied wonder, I mechanically did as she bade me,
and stood aside. She regarded me fixedly.
"I may as well say good-bye to you also,"--she observed--"For I shall
never live with you again."
"Nor I with you!" I said fiercely.