The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
"You, Geoffrey Tempest, are a man in whom a Thought of God was once
implanted,--that subtle fire or note of music out of heaven called
Genius. So great a gift is rarely bestowed on any mortal,--and woe
betide him, who having received it, holds it as of mere personal value,
to be used for Self and not for God! Divine laws moved you gently in
the right path of study,--the path of suffering, of disappointment, of
self-denial and poverty,--for only by these things is humanity made
noble and trained in the ways of perfection. Through pain and enduring
labour the soul is armed for battle, and strengthened for conquest. For
it is more difficult to bear a victory well, than to endure many
buffetings of war! But you,--you resented Heaven's good-will towards
you,--the Valley of Humiliation suited you not at all. Poverty maddened
you,--starvation sickened you. Yet poverty is better than arrogant
wealth,--and starvation is healthier than self-indulgence! You could not
wait,--your own troubles seemed to you enormous,--your own efforts
laudable and marvellous,--the troubles and efforts of others were
nothing to you;--you were ready to curse God and die. Compassionating
yourself, admiring yourself and none other, with a heart full of
bitterness, and a mouth full of cursing, you were eager to make quick
havoc of both your genius and your soul. For this cause, your millions
of money came----and,--_so did I_!"
Standing now full height he confronted me,--his eyes were less
brilliant, but, they reflected in their dark splendour a passionate
scorn and sorrow.
"O fool!--in my very coming I warned you!--on the very day we met I told
you I was not what I seemed! God's elements crashed a menace when we
made our compact of friendship! And I,--when I saw the faint last
struggle of the not quite torpid soul in you to resist and distrust me,
did I not urge you to let that better instinct have its way?
You,--jester with the Supernatural!--you,--base scoffer at Christ! A
thousand hints have been given you,--a thousand chances of doing such
good as must have forced me to leave you,--as would have brought me a
welcome respite from sorrow,--a moment's cessation of torture!"
His brows contracted in a sombre frown,--he was silent a moment,--then
he resumed--
"Now learn from me the weaving of the web you so willingly became
entangled in! Your millions of money were Mine!--the man that left you
heir to them, was a wretched miser, evil to the soul's core! By virtue
of his own deeds he and his dross were Mine! and maddened by the sheer
accumulation of world's wealth, he slew himself in a fit of frenzy. He
lives again in a new and much more realistic phase of existence, and
knows the actual value of mankind's cash-payments! This _you_ have yet
to learn!"
He advanced a step or two, fixing his eyes more steadily upon me.