The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
John Stuart Mill · en
He moved his hand and looked up,--his eyes were large and lustrous as
the eyes of a beautiful woman.
"I was thinking," he said, with a slight sigh--"of the last words I
uttered just now,--_things always right themselves_. Curiously enough in
art they always do,--no charlatanism or sham lasts with the gods of
Parnassus. But in other matters it is different. For instance _I_ shall
never right myself! Life is hateful to me at times, as it is to
everybody."
"Perhaps you are in love?" I said with a smile.
He started up.
"In love! By all the heavens and all the earths too, that suggestion
wakes me with a vengeance! In love! What woman alive do you think could
impress _me_ with the notion that she was anything more than a frivolous
doll of pink and white, with long hair frequently not her own? And as
for the tom-boy tennis-players and giantesses of the era, I do not
consider them women at all,--they are merely the unnatural and strutting
embryos of a new sex which will be neither male nor female. My dear
Tempest, I hate women. So would you if you knew as much about them as I
do. They have made me what I am, and they keep me so."
"They are to be much complimented then,"--I observed--"You do them
credit!"
"I do!" he answered slowly--"In more ways than one!" A faint smile was
on his face, and his eyes brightened with that curious jewel-like gleam
I had noticed several times before. "Believe me, I shall never contest
with you such a slight gift as woman's love, Geoffrey. It is not worth
fighting for. And _apropos_ of women, that reminds me,--I have promised
to take you to the Earl of Elton's box at the Haymarket to-night,--he is
a poor peer, very gouty and somewhat heavily flavoured with port-wine,
but his daughter, Lady Sibyl, is one of the belles of England. She was
presented last season and created quite a _furore_. Will you come?"
"I am quite at your disposition"--I said, glad of any excuse to escape
the dullness of my own company and to be in that of Lucio, whose talk,
even if its satire galled me occasionally, always fascinated my mind and
remained in my memory--"What time shall we meet?"
"Go and dress now, and join me at dinner,"--he answered; "And we'll
drive together to the theatre afterwards. The play is on the usual theme
which has lately become popular with stage-managers,--the glorification
of a 'fallen' lady, and the exhibition of her as an example of something
superlatively pure and good, to the astonished eyes of the innocent. As
a play it is not worth seeing,--but perhaps Lady Sibyl is."
He smiled again as he stood facing me,--the light flames of the fire had
died down to a dull uniform coppery red,--we were almost in darkness,
and I pressed the small button near the mantelpiece that flooded the
room with electric light. His extraordinary beauty then struck me afresh
as something altogether singular and half unearthly.
"Don't you find that people look at you very often as you pass, Lucio?"
I asked him suddenly and impulsively.