The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Sorrows of Satan: or, The Strange Experience of One Geoffrey Tempest, Millionaire: A Romance
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How the ensuing hours between this horrible episode and full morning
elapsed I do not know. I was dead to all impressions. I woke at last, or
rather recovered my senses to see the sunlight pouring pleasantly
through the half-drawn curtains at my window, and to find myself in bed
in as restful a position as though I had never left it. Was it then
merely a vision I had seen?--a ghastly sort of nightmare? If so, it was
surely the most abhorrent illusion ever evolved from dreamland! It could
not be a question of health, for I had never felt better in my life. I
lay for some time quiescent, thinking over the matter, with my eyes
fixed on that part of the room where those Three Shapes had seemingly
stood; but I had lately got into such a habit of cool self-analysis,
that by the time my valet brought my early cup of coffee, I had decided
that the whole thing was a dreadful fantasy, born of my own imagination,
which had no doubt been unduly excited by the affair of Viscount
Lynton's suicide. I soon learned that there was no room left for doubt
as to that unhappy young nobleman's actual death. A brief account of it
was in the morning papers, though as the tragedy had occurred so late at
night there were no details. A vague hint of 'money difficulties' was
thrown out in one journal,--but beyond that, and the statement that the
body had been conveyed to the mortuary there to await an inquest, there
was nothing said, either personal or particular. I found Lucio in the
smoking-room, and it was he who first silently pointed out to me the
short paragraph headed 'Suicide of a Viscount.'
"I told you he was a good shot!" he commented.
I nodded. Somehow I had ceased to feel much interest in the subject. My
emotion of the previous evening had apparently exhausted all my stock of
sympathy and left me coldly indifferent. Absorbed in myself and my own
concerns, I sat down to talk and was not long before I had given a full
and circumstantial account of the spectral illusion which had so
unpleasantly troubled me during the night. Lucio listened, smiling
oddly.
"That old Tokay was evidently too strong for you!" he said, when I had
concluded my story.
"Did you give me old Tokay?" I responded laughing--"Then the mystery is
explained! I was already overwrought, and needed no stimulant. But what
tricks the imagination plays us to be sure! You have no idea of the
distinct manner in which those three phantoms asserted themselves! The
impression was extraordinarily vivid."
"No doubt!" And his dark eyes studied me curiously. "Impressions often
_are_ very vivid. See what a marvellously real impression this world
makes upon us, for example!"
"Ah! But then the world _is_ real!" I answered.