The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
"I acknowledge the justice of that. I might have written--in the early
days. But, for reasons which Esme alone could appreciate, I refrained
from writing then. Later communication became impossible. I went to
England and joined up. I didn't mean to join up. But if you'd been on
the spot you'd understand the pressing urgency that impelled a man to
go. I was among the first batch of prisoners taken by the Germans.
It's a long story anyhow. I'll tell it to her. She will understand."
But that was exactly what Jim Bainbridge intended to dissuade him from
doing. The moral rights of the case were too subtle for him to grasp;
but he appreciated fully the insuperable difficulties of a readjustment
under existing conditions. The lives of three people would be upset and
the happiness of none secured. The only way to avoid further muddle was
to allow the present muddle to go on. That was how he saw it; and he
hoped to persuade Hallam into taking his view.
"Do many people know of your return?" he asked.
Hallam looked surprised.
"Only Huntley and yourself."
"In your place, I should clear out," Bainbridge advised. "Why not leave
the country altogether, Paul? I'll keep my mouth shut."
As the drift of his meaning dawned on him, Hallam's face hardened; the
grey eyes shone steel-like. Jim Bainbridge, observing him closely,
realised that the task he had set himself would prove no easy matter;
but he braced himself to fight for the peace of mind of the woman whose
happiness hung in the balance.
"You know," he added, after a brief moment for reflection, "your long
absence, your silence, amount pretty near to desertion. I don't know
much about the blooming divorce laws in this country; but I fancy if we
stretched our imaginations a bit we could make out a good case. Clear
out, Paul. Make it a case of desertion proper. It's the only decent
course to take. You don't want to injure Esme further. Leave her
alone."
"And condone a bigamy--in which my own wife is concerned! She _is_ my
wife. I will agree to a divorce only if she wishes it."
"Man, can't you see the unnecessary cruelty of letting her know you're
alive? She's got used to thinking of you as dead. She's happy."
Bainbridge leaned nearer to him and threw out a protesting hand. "It's
hard on you. I admit it's hard on you--damned hard. But--hang it
all!--you created the muddle. If it were only a matter of your claim
against George's, I wouldn't offer advice; but it isn't. It's a case
which would baffle Solomon himself. There's a kid--a baby girl. If I'm
not mistaken, the baby's got a stronger claim than either of you two
men. Some women are like that. Esme lives for the child."