"I don't know."
He fidgeted nervously with his collar and avoided her gaze. She was
looking at him with a puzzled, questioning expression in her eyes, with
no suspicion of his purpose in mentioning Paul's name, but struck by the
coincidence that Paul should be in his thoughts, even as he was in hers.
"It's strange you should have said that," she continued. "Lately I have
been dreaming of Paul. I dream of him nearly every night."
"Dream of him!" he echoed blankly. "Do you mean that you dream that
he's alive?"
"I dream that I see him looking at me," she answered. "He looks into my
eyes and turns away; and then I wake and lie in the darkness, trembling.
The dream is always the same."
"I say! that's queer," he said, staring at her, as earlier in the day he
had stared at Hallam, as if he saw a ghost. These things were making
him superstitious. "What should make you do that, I wonder?"
"Who can say? It's a matter of nerves, I suppose." She dropped the net
she was holding and put a hand on his arm and drew him towards the door.
"Come along down, old thing," she said. "We are not good company for
one another to-night. For your toothache, and my heartache, we must
seek an anodyne in the society of the others."
But for Bainbridge's imaginary toothache there was no effective anodyne:
the complexities of the situation were altogether beyond his efforts at
elucidation. There was nothing for it but to stand by and wait for the
blow to fall.
He sat on the stoep and talked with Lake, George's brother-in-law, about
the native labour unrest, and the advisability of adopting strong
measures in quelling the agitation.
"This native question is going to be a big problem in the near future,"
Lake opined. "We give the coloured man too much power."
"What other course is possible with a civilised system of government?"
Bainbridge contended.
"But the coloured man isn't properly civilised," Lake insisted; "that's
the point. He hasn't grasped the rudiments of citizenship yet."
"Well, we've got to teach him. He's learning."
Bainbridge's mood forced him into a reluctant opposition. He was not in
sympathy with the coloured man, but he took up his defence warmly. He
and Lake plunged into argument; while in the room behind them Mary sang
in a fresh, sweet soprano voice to Esme's accompaniment, and the rest
sat about and listened and joined in the popular choruses.
And, a few miles away, walking along the shore in the darkness, a man,
alone and with a mind black with despair, thought of the wife he had
come back to claim, and of a child which was not his...
Book 4--CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE.
Throughout that night Hallam tramped along the shore, struck inland,
came back to the sea, retraced his steps over the same ground; walking
with tireless energy while he considered the position, so hopelessly
complicated by the birth of the child.