It did not greatly matter which direction he took; he had no particular
objective in view: he wanted chiefly to shake off this annoying sense of
unfitness. He had never been ill in his life before: he did not
understand it. It had seemed to him that if he could walk he would be
all right, and instead he felt worse. He was giddy, and he could not
make any pace. He took a bush for a landmark and noted how long he was
in reaching it. It amazed him. He became angrily impatient with his
own laggard steps: he wasn't walking, he was crawling--crawling like a
sick animal, with a sick animal's instinct to find some hole to creep
into.
He looked about him vaguely, with tired eyes. That was what he wanted,
all he wanted,--some quiet shelter into which to crawl and rest.
He stumbled on, tripping over the dry scrub, lurching heavily like a
drunken man, and clinging tightly to his gun-case, as to something from
which he would not be separated, though the weight of it was too great
for his failing strength. Twice he came to his knees; but each time he
rose again and stumbled blindly on as before.
The sun rose higher in the heavens. It poured its warmth like some
molten stream upon the gaping ground. For miles around the veld
stretched in unbroken sameness, blackened from the long drought, sparse
and scrubby, with never a sign of any living thing, save the solitary
man's figure, moving slowly, with heavy uncertain gait, in quest of some
temporary shelter from the sun's burning rays.
It seemed to Hallam that he walked many miles and for many hours before,
a long way off like some wonderful oasis amid the arid waste, he
descried signs of water, and the wooded banks of a river which meandered
like a green irregular wall across the stark nakedness of the land. The
sight of this unexpected fertility gave him fresh heart and stimulated
his failing energies to further effort. By sheer force of will he
dragged his lagging feet over the uneven ground. He desired only to
reach the river and lie down beside it and rest. He longed simply to
get to the water, to feel it, to lave his burning brow in its coolness,
to moisten his parched lips.
Again he fell, and again he rose and staggered on, covering the
intervening space painfully and slowly. When he was quite close to the
bank he fell once more, and this time he failed to rise, despite his
persistent efforts. For the first time his hold on his gun-case
relaxed. He stared at it regretfully; but he knew that he was powerless
to drag it further. He left it lying where it was, and crawled on his
hands and knees painfully towards the bushes, crawled between them, and
reached the shallow river which had been his goal.
Book 3--CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN.