“Yes, yes, dear, dear,” interrupted Miss Holland, waving it away. “We
are in _strange_ surroundings. Those poor things are _not_ married. That
odious Sheffield who made their arrival an excuse for calling on me—I
did not tell you. Eh, he is odious,” she shook her head, childishly
screwing up her features. “_Odious_—believes, of course, that they
_are_. They are both hotel employés. It is one of those unfortunate
cases. And they are _quite_ without circumspection, talking loudly, with
open doors. The young man is a presentable fellow, nice-looking and
respectful in manner. He intends, I gather, to marry her. There is, of
course, an infant on the way.” Without waiting for response she waved
her glasses towards the mantelshelf.
4
“I have been looking at your books. That Shoppenore is an abominable
fellow.”
“Oh, those old essays——”
“He permits himself the most unpardonable insolences.”
The châtelaine’s response to Schopenhauer. Yet since she had not simply
cut him and turned away, since she had read on and been disturbed, he
was not quite disposed of. Evidently, even for her, the bare fact of his
being no gentleman was not enough. She had thrown an indignant glance
and was waiting.
What would she do, if he were sturdily defended, wondered Miriam,
smiling at the thought of herself as champion of this man whose very
name brought a pang out of the past. For years she had forgotten him,
together with the reflections that had exorcised him. It would be a
weary business to recall the steps of that furious battle.
“He was most frightfully sincere.”
Miss Holland’s face turned a dull red. She had really suffered, then,
under the lash of those rhythmic phrases; a little believing. This was
an abyss. Here indeed was the worst Schopenhauer could do. His least
pardonable outrage. She felt the shock of it reflected along her own
nerves. It roused her to battle.
But as she felt her way back to the centre of the fray she found herself
once more siding with the man, fearing and hating the mere semblance of
woman. Its soft feebleness, its helpless blind strength in keeping life
going. Felt again all her old horror and loathing of femininity, still
faintly persisting. What was the answer to Schopenhauer? Swiftly seeking
she passed again the point where she had first realised the collapse of
the Lady, the absurdity, in the face of ordered thought, of oblivious
dignity and refinement.
“He was a Weary Willy. That is to say a pessimist. A man who attends, by
the way the schoolboy was right, only to the _feet_. Feet being, of
course, always of clay. He saw life for everybody, going from gold to
black, no escape, and each generation in turn fooled by nature, through
woman, into going on.”
“How beautiful upon the mountains,” whispered Miss Holland, “are the
feet——”