“The state of _society_,” breathed Mrs. Cameron, eagerly dropping her
voice. But Miriam had left her. The whole day would not be long enough
for the enterprise of getting Mrs. Cameron down to underlying things.
She wanted the bright figure to stay, gathering the beams of the spring
sunlight before her eyes, but Mrs. Cameron had read the opposition in
her face.
“Fare thee well, lassie,” she chanted in hillside voice and flung, as
she went, a bunch of primroses on to the table. Miriam pursued her for a
word of thanks. From half-way down the stairs she turned with a piercing
smile, and sang out:
“It’s your _life_ you are living here, lassie, and flowers are for all.”
Miriam turned back. The small bunch lying upon the scatter of charts and
letters was there to brighten her life that was spending itself, had
spent itself for the ten years since she left home, the years that are
called “the best.” So Mrs. Cameron saw it. So perhaps everyone would see
it. She herself the only blind spectator. It was true. This scene that
she persisted in seeing as a background, stationary, not moving on,
_was_ her life, was counting off years. The unlimited future she meted
out for the life she was one day to lead appeared to Mrs. Cameron
defined, a short span.
A tap at the door and Eve coming in with the mid-morning soup and her
look of adoring care. She moved in the room with a restrained eagerness.
Taking her time. Never still, yet waiting, savouring as Miriam was
savouring, their perfect interchange, the sudden lift into happiness
that came to them in each other’s presence. Miriam stood motionless,
suddenly conscious of herself as standing considering Mrs. Cameron’s
judgment with bent head, and then as utterly relieved of it by Eve who
passed to and fro close by her as if she were not there, and was gone
with a light click of the gently closing door. And there had been an
endless moment of communion, a moment for both of them, of oblivion and
renewal in the presence of a lover.
It was part of Eve’s wonderfulness that she should have come in just
then, to answer Mrs. Cameron. Miriam held the image of her in her mind,
her gently rounded, ever so little stocky and stumpy figure; the deep
rose flush on her cheeks over which the cloudy black hair cast a margin
of shadow; the pure serenity that radiated from her, that was
independent and ultimate. Past accounting for, and independent of
knowledge. That was itself knowledge.
And ever since, a year ago, she had first appeared in the house, she had
come punctually at bad moments, into the room. And had grown shyly and
quite silently to know how near she was and how precious. She had come
so unobtrusively, replacing the jaunty careless Ellen gone away with the
Orlys. It was strange, one of those strange hints life brought that she
should have appeared at the very time of the other Eve’s unbearable
death, bearing not only her name, but her gentle certainties. And her
way of gathering all spears to her own breast.